0078的——明信片

我把1分钟的录音寄了给你。原因是因为我很想谢谢你。我不知道你有没有真的放在心上，但一直以来我很努力的想要感谢你一直的好。
我答应你，
我不会只记得你一时的好，我会记牢，你一直以来的好。

长大以后，我越来越不敢过于要求别人做我想要的，却又做不到事，因为我觉得会麻烦他人。我怕麻烦人家，毕竟人家没有义务要帮我。也因为如此，我只要求了你帮我买书。虽然我很想很想要到签名，甚至出席现场，但是是我自己无法出席，而且还放朋友飞机。所以我还是收嘴了。

不懂为什么，到最后我还是跟你说了签书会的详情——地点，时间，谁，做什么。而且，说了我想要签名。但是我依然很担心我这样是否很过分。但是你二话不说，就哈哈笑地给我回答说，你知道了。因为你已经看过了节目表。我真的很惊讶，但是我并没有抱太大的期望，因为排队不是每个人都要的。

我知道你总会尽你所能，所以我很放心的缺席了当天的签书会。我甚至忘了看时间，直到我收到一封来自你信息。你说，你搞定好了。而且有个礼物给我。我嘴角上扬，开心得对着电话笑起来。

我还是问了是否多人，“要排队排很久吗？”之类的问题。如果很多人，我会很内疚得要你付出你的时间。但是你没回答，回答的都是不重要的问题。【囧】

后来想起你说的礼物。礼物？我想是明信片。谢谢你，你一定是首100位。

我很放心的过了星期一。隔天看到你，我很惊讶的，看见你拿出来的不只是书和明星片。真的，我完全在状态以外。

过后，我就笑笑的说再见。（PS,信息上说的都是真的。）

我想说的，不是只是谢谢的谢谢。而是很谢谢你总是那么用心。在你听到录音之前，我FB信息他说，我很感谢他的细心，让我感受到了朋友的用心。我告诉他收到这份惊喜的喜悦和感动。只是，他没有念出。

忍耐若是为了理想，就不是委屈——0078
0078:: 我希望，你排队，真的不委屈。 =P
我从来不知道你有这样的运气。以后有机会，请沾点给我。 =P 
(我又麻烦你了)。 =P

我要问，为什么写不是华文名？=P

我觉得它应该归你 =/

我答应你，

我不会只是记得你一时的好，

我会记牢，你一直的好。=P

我还是很罗嗦了 >.<''

我喜欢你

I'm not good in language. I dont have much talent in language learning. I think, maybe, my basic in both Malay, English and Mandarin is not stable and solid enough. and as I grow, I didnt spend much time in polishing my language.

I always admire those who can speak any language fluently and write attractively because I couldn't. and those people are always around me.  Many of them suggested me to be hardworking to read and be brave to speak out, and they guarantee this steps will slowly help me to improve any language.

I have spent much time listen to my BM teacher's instruction and followed what she said. In order to score, I try my best in not only reading, but also memorize those essay sentence by sentence. I still can remember what I wrote in my BM spm paper was those what I've memorized for months. I mixed everything together to become a complete essay. I was really proud of my teacher at the moment when I got my SPM result. and now, still, I'm proud of her.

I've used to speak in Mandarin since I was young. It is my mother tongue. I counldn't remember I can speak English when I was in kindergarten even though my parents said that I spoke in English very well that time. Mainly, I speak Mandarin with my family and friends.

But now, it has slightly being changed. Every subjects in our syllabus is in English, my surrounding always revolve around English language. I also met difficulties as I felt a surge of pressure acting on me when I was attending her class. I'd heard about the people talking about how strict is her during her class and etc. I'm really afraid of doing her exercise and I mind her wording during her lecture. Seriously, I'm really afraid of her.

When it comes to week 12, I think I was having presentation about unemployment. I prepared it for many times to avoid making errors and try to get marks from her. I try to present confidently and look at her calmly. My happiness gained slowly when I saw her smiled and nodded. I smiled.

When week 13, Friday, we dont have much work to do. We looked at our key concept II, and do some simple exercise. She let us go earlier, I think. and I remember, before that, she said something and required to take picture together. I felt that her character has been changed in my heart. Although she is strict, but I think I like her at the end of semester. Even, I felt abit sad when I walked out the class and said, thank you miss.

伦敦奥运

我没有想过8月的第一个帖子写的是“伦敦奥运”。不过也对，世事难料。如果事情都是自己预料之内，没有突发的，那可能衬不上是人生。

我错过了奥运的开幕典礼直播，看的都是重播。但是我没有很用心的看，只记得经典的是豆豆先生，Mr.Bean。多久没有看过Rowan Atkinson的作品了，我不知道。虽然他白发多了，皱纹也多了，但他搞笑风趣再次在舞台上展现了风采，沾了大众的欢呼和掌声。透过电视视屏，还看见后面的观众拿起手机还是相机似的忙着把镜头朝向他。这就是一个成功演员的魅力。

与2008年北京奥运相比，我对2012的奥运并没有什么关注。但伦敦奥运发生的打假球我还是有丁点关注的。毕竟网上电台电视都再隔天报道。自己也在网上看了“假球比赛”。看了不知道是好笑、好气还是好闷。很多人对此也给了很多的评论。有人说球员缺乏体育精神；也有人说不应该把剑指向球员。输赢在一场比赛固然是每个参赛者追求的目标，但是把目标似为固然就会扭曲了追求的意义；然而，顺从命令，是对是错？那有如何判断？

另外伦敦奥运的经典就在于我们的拿督李宗伟和中国的林丹的对决。那一场比赛，我和家人都守在电视机前。虽然我不会打羽球，但是对于两个高手的对决，再怎么不会打球，看球赛的我都感受到刺激快感。和2008北京奥运比较，今年，拿督李宗伟的水准更上一层。双反都把每一粒球都视珍贵。可惜的，虽然最后败给了林丹，但是我们还是为他骄傲了。

继羽球风波，接下来的焦点都放到了10米跳水项目。因为大马代表女子组代表，潘德莉拉再次为我国争光，在本届奥运摘下了第2枚奖牌。也因为这年轻女孩，跳水项目在大马掀起了风潮。但更重要的是，我国的Jalur Gemilang再次展现的颁奖典礼上，让许多人热血热泪。因为始终，大马运动员在今年的奥运会上表现极佳，创下高峰。 

不管是金、银还是铜牌，体育运动本体是为了锻炼身体或是纯属兴趣。当它演变成一种比赛，一种压力的时候，运动员背负不在是兴趣和身心，而是更重大的责任和压力。但我相信，大马的运动员无论在生理和心理上都能达到一个平衡点。再次为所有运动员欢呼喝彩。 

转眼，一个小时后就是闭幕典礼。可惜，感叹，时间总是冲冲流去。反之，庆幸，欣慰，精彩的画面，都烙印在脑海里。

sticky notes

I used to add a "sticky note" on the desktop whenever there is something important or I tend to forget such as exam, assignment due date, special event and etc.  The most sticky notes that I "stick" on it is about 5, which is all about the coming exams and quiz; another 3 is about assignment, i think.

Everytimes, as time passes, the date getting closer and closer to the date written on the colourful "sticky note", I become more and more worry and anxious.  I would feel tension and pressure are acting on me, but I would wish it pass as fast as possible so I can delete the colourful thing on the desktop.  Whenever I deleted it, I feel like I'm relief, go through a war and pass through a hardship (even though it is not really a hardship) *just hyperbole.

It is really rare to make the sticky note to be deleted and disappear because no matter how much I delete, I will create another new again.  It is just like hydrologic cycle, which we called as water cycle when we learnt since we were young.  Everything cycle and recycle again.

This is a part of life that I'm having now.

Bear with it.

I'll get used to it. =)

第一次…我

碰巧在即将深夜的夜晚里想起光亮的“第一次”，所以把七月份的第一个文章、2012年的下半年的开始称为“第一次…我”。 我一直有很多事想写下，记录下来，但是偏偏进入了户口后却没有半点汹涌的浪潮涌上心头。要么就是当眼前的荧幕由蓝转黑，躺在舒服的床上后，才有海浪涌上脑海的意识。

为什么突然想起光亮的“第一次”就把题目题为“第一次…我”？

今天是大姐生日，却是我在近年里“第一次”没有和她在家庆祝的一次。感觉有点可惜，有点感叹。昨天在家的我，她却偏偏不切蛋糕，等到我今天回宿舍时才切。虽然透过skype唱生日快乐，看着她吹蜡烛切蛋糕，心里还是觉得可惜我不在，但却有着那一丁点暖暖的~

我知道大姐是疼我的。一直都是。虽然她时不时骂我，偶尔刺激我的愤怒，但她都是疼惜我的。至少我感觉到姐姐的疼爱。其实我觉得很幸福，有着很疼爱我的每一个人。

最近的生活有点像不知所措，心情有点像天气一样时晴时雨。我完成的我今年来“第一次”那么认真的论文。明天就是交成果的时候了。但是我却担心着。我花了不少时间、心情、耐力、努力去完成着一份值25%的论文。我跟它，不，是老师，因为批改的是老师。它不是我的敌人，但我还是跟它拼得三更半夜的…中间的欢乐是无价的；但当中的挫折和成败也是值得自我检讨的。

我坦诚经过这一个“第一次”，我学到了真的很多很多。我用尽自己的认真和耐心；我花尽空余的时间和睡眠，我真的希望这一次能够顺顺利利。因为我现在心中对明天到来的挣扎和心情实在无法释怀。我可惜看到眼前的错误却无法纠正；我内疚花了一大叠纸张对地球的伤害；我害怕明天论文换成绩的那一刻；我，不想面对。

但是在怎么都好，秒针滴一生声，12点。
我依旧无法改变。
时间会走，该到的都会来临。

“第一次”，我要好好面对眼前的考验。

脆弱

你有没有很脆弱？

 当我把你从桌上往下丢 

 你破碎声一响 

 我知道 

 你也和我一样脆弱 

 when it drops at a high speed

. . . 

Protected.

1.
I was having memorable time with my family last weekend. It is not only memorable, but unforgettable, I think. We went to Pavillion for dinner. Purposely went there to taste Madam Kwan's restaurant. I was getting excited when dad said YES to have dinner at Madam Kwan's restaurant. The main point wasn't be having delicious food there, but having a time with my family outside. and also, tasting an unusual food at a restaurant where I seldom go. It sounds very fresh and attracted me.

2.
I was really happy last Saturday. Although it seems normal, but the happiness from heart is indescribable. My sis with mum and I went to Jusco Selantan which we familiar with. I went there for no purpose. Just because of sis and mum want to go then I just followed. I drove and I parked the car successfully as my driving skill is really bad especially parking >.<'' I told my sister whatever I want when i saw, and ask my sis for paying. *evil* Of course she don't really care and take it serious. She has understand my style and used to it. =P I took a packet of steamed bread when I saw it readily and my sis was shocked as I didn't ask for permission and never bother weather they will pay for me or not.

I'm very happy after they bought me so many things. Although it is just some food, but I felt happy. I'm always protected by my family and I know that they do care me. They do buy the best thing for me, try to fulfill my desire. Although there are some quarrel between my sis and I ; although, sometimes, I get scold by my parents ; although, there are some unsatisfied matter to them. But there is just a moment, maybe a few minutes or seconds. Because I've been always fond of them. =)

Now, slowly, I understand, why my friend say I couldn't understand how a eldest felt when parents put close attention to the younger or youngest. I understand his thought, but couldn't say anything. But I'm glad that he is still care and love her sister, and being proud to tell me that he is already being well-known by others that he loves his sister much.
If you do so, I'm proud of you too =)

No matter which position are you in your family, be grateful as you are one of the members in the family. Not the youngest should be protected, but also protect among each others. Everyone has one's lineage, which no one can change it. =)

Say "I Love You" when necessary ;

and Say "Sorry" to resolve ;

Hug tightly to show warmth ;

Take action to show concern ;

Do the best for them, to create happiness

and Working towards harmony, in your family.