3个步骤【··深呼吸·· ··微笑·· ··无所谓··】

今天听了一个听众打电话到电台，讲述着她个人对身边的恐惧。她见过无数的医生，却依旧无法逃出自己的恐惧。

当年的她目睹自己的父亲被抢匪杀害；母亲严格无情的对待；酿成了今天缺乏自信时时紧张的自己。多年埋在心里的创伤使她不断得怀疑自己做的一切是否正确，总是担心害怕身边的人因为自己做的不好而责怪自己。

她不断地向DJ述说着以前目睹的噩梦、面对世人的恐惧、看见负面画面的害怕和犹豫。但同时她本身又能理出一番道理而且说得头头是道。却偏偏无法让自己实行下去。
她说她害怕看见他人打架、吵架、被指责等。一旦遇到这些情景的时候她会很紧张，直到无法做任何举动。虽然这些对很多人来说她如此的反应很普遍，很多人都会害怕。但她一直认为自己有病，就因为她有看医生。

DJ尝试向她解释、开导她，但她始终认为自己不可以。庆幸那位DJ持着耐心，灌输她正面能量。教导她一些让她在紧张的时候冷静下来的方法。

DJ教她凡是遇到不能解决事和紧张的时候，做3个步骤：
深呼吸 -> 微笑 -> 对自己说声“无所谓”
这对很多人来说很简单，但对于一些人，却是一件具有挑战性的事。

很多人在面对生命的路途中总有许多恐惧。面对这一切的恐惧不但需要时间，更需要自己的毅力。虽然DJ教那听众采用的方式很简单，但不是每个人都做得到，并且带来成效。我想很少人会向那听众那样那么有心。因为知道自己一旦紧张什么都会忘记，所以用笔记下来。那三个简单又易背的步骤却需要用笔和字抄下来的举动或许让其他的听众笑傻了，但，她确确实实的在为自己努力着，学习着。

多么感动得听见那位打电话去的听众在DJ问她紧张时该如何做的时候，
她回答：“现在很紧张，不记得。”
“没关系，深呼吸”，“再深呼吸”，“记得了吗？” DJ问。
“不记得”（从电台声音听见她的呼吸声）
接着自己说：“无所谓啦，再努力，继续再走”
“还有呢？有三个步骤” DJ说
“笑一笑啦！” 她说（自己也笑了）。继续：“无所谓啦，再继续啦” （再笑）

那时，我嘴角扬上，你，做到了。

后附她给大家的话：
要努力向前，不要要求别人给你的东西，别人给的都只是虚幻。自己要努力、会想、长大，用自己的能力去推动自己，并且不要太多的幻想。 ;)

你做的很好。加油！

··深呼吸··
··微笑··
··无所谓··

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失礼

久违了

打从拿了成绩，踏出校门后

心想着不会像以前穿着蓝色衣裙黑鞋  再踏进这里一步

曾经因为这里  我哭过  闹过  火过

但最终还是挨过了

也笑了  开了  明了  了了

恨的不恨了

爱的还爱着

锁的解开了

心还在热着

结果最近再次踏进这校园

看着一个又一个不熟悉的脸孔

却赏着一栋又一栋建筑的痕迹

再面对着生疏的辩题

我  又回到当年活跃的活动  -辩论

这几个星期内平均回去一次

坐的位子不同的

看的角度不一样了

手写的内容目的也不一样了

经过一场又一场的比赛

即使审着重复的辩题

每场都带来不同的效果和思考空间

从初赛到决赛

看着各只队伍以不同的方式和技巧去诠释一个点

和以前的我相比

真的  进步超多

我很敬佩小小年纪的他们可以有那么突出的思想

很喜欢听见一辩那温柔响亮的开篇立论

二辩手忙脚乱地对辩

三辩气质高阳、调气作弄试地一个个叫起来盘问

更很欣赏结辩把一盆散去的沙从拾甚至有些能塔出金字塔

对整只队伍画上完美的休止

相较起来

嗯

我失礼了

Gift from Birthday Girl from U.S.

I took plane not more than five times in my 19 years. And the planes I sat flied locally. But I have been KLIA airport more 5 times? I guess? and it is due to a same reason, same people and almost the same time. In fact, 2 of it are exactly the same date but in different year. What I can say is just coincident. =)

Whenever people ask about my sisters, most of the time, I would tell them my eldest sis is at US. Not studying, but working. In fact, training is a more suitable word. She went there quite frequently and she normally stay there at least 3 months. She had been extended to 6 months last two years, that why whenever people like friends and relatives asking about her, I will be keep repeating that she is at US. 

Finally she is back. Together with lots of luggage. I'm not strong enough to take one of her luggage, not even the small one.. I'm excited cus I knew she brought things for me. Always.. XD YES!!

This time, she brought me a Kipling bags, Converse shoes, shoe key chain (as she knew I'm collecting shoes key chains), Converse jacket and etc.. XD I couldn't wait to open her luggage one by one cus surely I will get surprise when I open it! haha!! She brought lots of magnets to stick at her magnet board in her kitchen and numbers of key chains from Hollywood. I will always take some from it by just inform her. Though she will shout at me but she will just let me take anyone of it (normally). I knew she is fierce sometimes, but she is quite generous in the way that she bought things for me from US. =P

Bags of magnets & Key Chains
with at least 5 USD each I think? =O

She normally buy Skechers but
Converse this time.. 

Converse again

Souvenir Cups from San Francisco Zoo.
It is quite expensive.. About 10 USD
But you can refill any drinks free in the Zoo!

Converse Shoes Key Chains
(about 7USD each)
*clap* *jump*
It is exactly same design as the shoes shown above! =D

Dolphin Soft Toy
XD

Didnt get to capture other souvenirs.. But mostly is shirts, nuts, kitchen stuffs, bags and etc.. =D

Thank You My Dear Sis.. XD

& Happy Birthday <3 br="" nbsp="">
=P

A Lucky Day -- Free Drinks from Sunway Starbucks

Feeling good~~ =D

Finally I have my own time to do whatever things other than school works. I feel release stared from the moment when I finished last assignment in the semester. I feel glad as I'm able to finish it before the due date, and quite satisfy with what I've done.

Coincidentally my sis's office shut down and she don't need to work for this week. End up my sis together with mum went to KL and submitted the assignment with me today. LoL! Then we heading to sis's office to take something and then Sunway Pyramid without any Pre-planning. Before we leave, we wanted to find a place to have some tea. At first sis went to coffee bean, and she's actually queuing up, but I pushed her to Starbucks because she don't have Citi Bank credit card in order to enjoy b1f1. XD 

Guess what.. We are so lucky that the staff in Starbucks approached us and offered us a free drinks. He said we were the 200th customers? I guess.. Because I was shocked and stunned when he approached us. My sis's response is much better than me and she answer "sure" to the staff. The staff started explaining the steps that we have to do in order to claim a tall free drinks. Honestly, he's quite friendly and funny. (Y)

Not only that, he told us if we went back to Sunway and he will personally give us venti instead of tall size of drinks. Somehow, he offered two free drinks for us as my sis said that there is 3 of us. haha!! Feel so glad to get the chance to claim free drinks there~ what a lucky day man!

#SunwayStarbucks Staff Rocks!! 

Thumbs up! =D

I am squeezing by loads of works these weeks. I was almost committed to suffer from the nervous tension, yet luckily there is something always pull me up whenever I am exhausted and restless. Meanwhile, I am glad I'm still able to do it quite smoothly and stick with my schedule constantly, though sometimes I might be a bit lazy and procrastinate.

Few weeks time ago, I told the boss that I can make it but, two days before the day, when Jia called me and asked whether I'm going to the party or not, I cannot assure her of the probability of going. I felt so bad. Teh Ooi even said I'm "soi lui" if I didnt go. *sigh* WHY??

In the end, I went, and I leave my assignments aside. Because tutor brought a good news for us by telling us that one of the assignment's due date has been postponed. I was like, seeing a bring angel light in front of the iPad when I read the announcement. See, as long as you work hard, there will be rewards for you in the end. LoL!! But of course, this is not really common, and dont expect it will happen again. =/ *should be grateful now*.

I felt.. dont know what to do except eat, so did Jia and Teh Ooi, can see through their faces. LoL! We sat like a boss because we were near to the gate. People passed back frequently, yet no one could stare at us. Lame! We saw people going around here and there, everyone has their job to do. So three of us end up doing things that we enjoyed - eat, talk and take picture. I knew they couldn't tahan me because I ate a lot that night. *ps, I'm hungry kay* Thanks also for getting food for me, without shyness. XD

Some how, I felt lost and hollow in the crowd. Some of the Kakix were absent, and we dont even know the current life of each other. We are getting lesser attach and getting further from each others. I know we are somehow tying together, but seems like we are lacking of chances to meet up and enjoy the joys together like last time. The memories are fresh, yet so far. =(

But at least, I know we are tying together. Caring each others. Those memories can just keep in minds. The unforgettable memories, vividly. So I do enjoy the party. =D Having fun with a small group, and get to meet up with prefects seniors. Got siao siao one, crazy one, pretty one, serious one and pattern one. LoL!! Bear with the poor English that I've wrote. But honestly, they are really gorgeous and amazing. =)

An event is so powerful that it can make anyone from everywhere back to the origin, joining together again. and there, everyone can recall the past memories, and share the happiness together. After a couple of years.

Ps:
Kang Zi, your pimples are not so obvious here.. LoL!!

Here to wish Hyoung Happy Birthday. Enjoy your 21st years old. =)

Week 5

Paper notes in class

It comes to the fifth week for this semester.  The lecture classes and tutorials classes are going to end by two more weeks.  It also implies that the semester is going to end soon.  I like short semester.  Everything goes very fast, ends very quick.  Although the schedule is very pack, as usual, but I enjoy it.

It's a new challenge for me to done a assignment within a short period.  It is a very big challenge for having pop quizzes in every classes for methodology, and unpredictable handphone quizzes.  The handphone quizzes will be given when someone's phone rings during the class.  It will be a tough quiz for as the questions given are those materials that we've not learnt.  I tend to have heart attack whenever I attend the class, and I'm scare once she steps in the class.  Everything just happens randomly, unpredictably.  But the lecture class is fun, though many people don't find the fun part, at least I'm happy with it.  Despite of lecturer is very strict, talks like rocket and particular on small things like the size of quiz paper, the way we write and the format, yet, I found some laughing points from her speech.

I should have 1 month holiday after few weeks from now.  But I decided to take the other subject from other department, and the department is a long semester.  Hence, I have to scarify the holiday and attend the classes which will hold during my holiday.  Shouldn't use the word "scarify" though, as I'm willing to do so.  Many people found hard to understand why I do so, squeeze everything together, but it is fine for me.

I understand that Nothing can be so perfect.   

June Start

I'm scared of the passing speed of time.  Seems like I'm trying to escape from coming challenges.  Maybe I'm not ready yet, or I'm worrying too much.  

I'm afraid of being out of control of my life.  I count the probability before making decision, predict the outcome and test for the hypothesis.  Yet, for some matters, there have no much time for me to do so.  The process is just taking too long.  And sometimes, not everything can be predicted, controllable and being tested. 

I told myself to chill on sometimes, yet the truth tells me that I shouldn't.  Not every way that works on others suit me.  Everyone has their way to live their life.  We should listen others' opinions and suggestions, but we must be able to view ourselves as we are, and not change and follow, blindly.