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用心的去经营每一个日子，一步一步的前进，慢慢的去探索，你会发现，周围的事物会慢慢因为你的改变而有所变化。倘若你一直站在原点，你在的，还是在原地。

谢谢你来我生命里，给我很多真心，让我成为一个很好的自己，慢慢发芽，茁壮成长。

- 其实有什么好害怕的。只要你真心对一个人好，那个人会感受到，也一样对你好。relationship is quite individualistic sometimes. -

Death

We all have been told to live our life fully, without regret. If there's any great opportunities, grab it. Because we only live once.

Some people say that we shall think that everyday is our last day of live, so we could live harder and be more appreciate with what we have at the moment. It probably strengthen our courage to do things that we wish we could do, but hestitate due to multiple concerns. 

But it's very unusual to think that I'm going to die tomorrow.

But, if it happened, life never come back. 

I've told you that I died once in dream. Your eyes turn red and afraid of me leaving. If my ancestors brought me, and I never come back, I wouldn't have the chance to meet you after years.

I remember how quick it was between the happening of life and death, I remember how far it was between my dead self and people who are alive. I remember how regret I was for being unable say a last goodbye to people whom I care and love. 

For me, dying is not scary, but failing to complete things that I want to achieve, like leaving a will and words to my friends and family would make me suffer and struggle in death. 

I'm not sure why I always have the strange dreams. It happens again this two weeks. 

It makes me spend some times think about my life. Touch wood, if I'm gone, I hope I'll have some words leave for you. If no, I hope I've brought you some joys and the sense of meaningfulness in life to you, whom I care in life. 

If I know I'm leaving, I would

- first say I love you to my friends and family 

- write long message for people whom I really cared and loved 

- hope to be able to show my gratitude sincerely by saying "thank you for bring me up" and giving a closest and tightest hug to my family, my angel and my close friends

And I hope, I would leave my loves with smile for you all. 

对身边爱的人要及时

美丽的爱，会括盖恐惧… 

没有完成的画

-无所畏，无所惧- 篇

有人在编排行程或计划时，会尝试预计得准确，把风险减至最低。会希望所有的事情都可以如计的进行，完成，优雅的谢幕。

但总有千万个未知的因素可以随时打乱了已安排好的路。那种种的未知数很令人泄气、也很令人恐惧。所以很多人都套用了“计划永赶不上变化”来形容如此无奈的情节。但这就意味着做事情不应该要预先做好铺排、无需预计、不要安排吗？

不。

即使有很多未知的因素，都不能忽略了事先准备的功夫。或许最后的结果不如预期的效果，但当你有了编排行程的准备功夫，无形中，也因此而强化了你对那行程的大方向。同时，在准备功夫的过程中，都会让你有机会预测和计算更多未知因素发生的可能性。所以这才叫准备和预计。

没有一个预计的准确度高达100%；也没有100%不会漏洞的编排。大家都是人类，何苦为难同类不许出错。况且，每个未知的因素，都是让你能够为下一个计划想得更周全的铺层。

虽然，

未知很恐惧；无法完成很泄气。

但当你凡事做了最好的安排，接纳了未知的存在，即使未能如预期的编排抵达目标，但至少你不会失去方向。做好准备，接受未知的因素，即使最后未能完成已经开始上色的画，甚至需要把画给阁下、留下、离去，或许你会感受可惜；但你也会对如此未知的因素介入而感觉无所畏，无所惧。

The moment when you're prepared, accepted the probability of unpredictable happening, you'll hope for the best. Even though it might ruin the planned schedule, it may even cause you fail to reach the destination of the plan, but you will be firm of your stand. You would have the alternative ways to go instead of being stucked and lost in direction. 

When you've already accepted the unpredictable happening, you won't be frightening, if it happens. 

Acknowledgement

Acknowledgment. Thank you. Your words made my day as well. 

Again, thank you for giving me an opportunity to be truthful to myself and in front of you. I'm proud to say that I'm your student at once. 

"I appreciate your honestly and am proud of your integrity"

I learn more than just the knowledge from the text. I learn more from you, the attitude towards life in overall. 

May God bless you, and me as well. =) 

Prank

This story tell me to be aware when people asked for your infomation and details. Anytime and to anyone. No matter it is day or night; regardless of how much you trust the person. Also, it also tell me to prank people in a smarter way. LoL! 

One night, my friend happily texted me and said, "finally you created an Instagram account." I was abit confused and she sent me the screenshot of my account. I stunned with big eyes. Automatically, I recalled few minutes ago, one of my friend asked for my info. LoL! 

What a prank they did on me. These people are always funny and silly. 

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The moment when I bumped into new group of friends and tried to get closer with them to know more about them deeply. I realize there's nothing to be hide and no such things as private and secret policy. They would tell me anything that I don't know and I can't stop myself from laughing and giving a stunned facial expression to them.

Thanks for giving me the opportunity to meet these people in my life. When I was down, they motivated me; when I was nervous, they gave me a hug without hesitate. 

But why you make used of my trust on you to prank me in that way?! Hahaha! It's alright, because I wasn't that smart enough when I tried to make fun of you guys and you guys are trying to get me an account. LoL! 

I would use it, if, it wasn't register under my academic email address. LOL! 

Thank you for the good deed. =) I have lots of fun with you guys! 

What A Prank..~~~

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XD

=O

半年

我要眺望远方，看着蔚蓝的天空，像看着充满无限可能的未来，步步前进 … …

··2015 已过了大半年，回眸看看以往的自己，欣慰地看见自己离过去渐渐的远去；却为心割的感受感觉痛彻心扉。

··六个月内始终有特定的突破。我很少为新的一年定下目标并用文字记下。但我坚信自己对于2015的思路还算清晰。我想或许因为自己知晓跌倒的意义；又或者已经体会当前痛楚的极限，不想再重复反复颠倒碰撞的滋味。

··我相信人类是求生的生物。任何行动和举止都是求生的体现。对于行为的对错和举止的是非，我还没有控权。或许这些都不太重要，我更关心的，是每个求生体现的根和本。

··我不想再往后退，也不想像吃了迷幻药的个案不断地让过去吸引着。这份毒药确实很危险，一旦碰上，更会上了瘾，被以往的美好与伤痛牵着，甚至锁绑，无法脱离过去，寸步难行。

··当你想告诉别人不要对他人有偏见的时候，你更应该做的，是以行动证明你可以接纳更广泛的人群。

··这一年半以来，有两个人向我说了一样的话——— “你就像是以前的我。”这仿佛在告诉我：面对一些世俗的情节是件再也普通不过的事。又或者，那是个必经的过程。一旦跨越了，那就成长了。

··在生活过程中，最有趣的地方，莫过于在过渡时期的转变和成长。没有比这转变的成长更有价值、更加喜悦。

··虽然回顾依旧感觉苦涩，也许那是年轻、青春、青涩的代表作。再苦，也都会有甘甜。

··生活不难，不苦；但却也不容易。年，总过得很快。在跑道上的自己，走了几公里？拿了多少；放了多少？

··有些梦像似幸福的催眠，却会带着一些微酸的感觉。有时候，梦做一半，比较美。

··不忘感谢很多身边出现的人。有播种子的、有施肥的、有拔苗助长的、有踩踏的、也有路过的。想念的继续挂念；想靠近的继续保持；想脱离的继续远离；想握紧的继续牵牢；想冲刺的继续赛跑；想放走的继续丢下；想爱的继续迷恋。都没有错。请好好善待自己。

··其实也没有很远，过了，也就走了。去哪里？不晓得。愿可走远，是否回望，看着你的眼神有答案。不变，至少至今，没有变。

··有一种情感叫陪伴。太阳升起，抬头望望，微笑前行。可以，同步前行。

杂

可惜的是

你已经不在身边

=')

才发现

身旁也有很美好的章节

后知后觉

已经不在迷恋坚持

我已经

飞的更高跑得更远

但到头来

还是秉持着信任

以往
都是最美丽的故事

向往着

成为一个更好的自己