剪发

有人说，头发似烦恼丝。这是否代表着头发越多、越长，就意味着烦恼越多、越长久？

两年前，我剪短了头发。仿佛剪断了以往的烦恼，一刀两断似的。

是我嫌烦恼不够多吗？

我又留长了头发。

但上天仿佛疼惜着我，总是要在头发留得有些长度时，一段一段地，把它剪得一刀两断。

留了大半年的头发，好像功亏一篑。

不怕，它只是短了些许。

与以往相比，还是长了。

或许我就是自寻烦恼，把头钻去烦恼丝去。

其实一切的都只是，

只要自己喜欢，就好。

Tetris Yo~

Times always fly, with or without conscious. I'm glad that I've pass through these "harsh time". I put a quotation mark at the word because it seems not really harsh, it is just a hyperbole to exaggerate how I feel/view the time this week. In fact, it is a hard time, but not really hard though.. sounds contradict.. But, seriously, this midterm has brought me to the top of the hill, and let me fall on the slope.. (sweat)

Exams is always the 'harsh time' for students like me; 'relax time' for teachers. However, it is always the 'bad' time for teachers after the exam; and 'best time' for the students. It is just a circular role. That's why, it is quite fair for everyone, at least in this statement. =)

I don't like compare. But comparison is one way to check whether you are right or wrong after the test.

The "pek cek" moment is that when you found out your answers or steps is different from others! and what you tend to say is: "What's wrong WEIH!", "Ya MEH?", "You sure AR?" and etc with the "AR, MEH, LOR" at the end of the sentence. It sounds funny and the moment seems familiar to me in this exam. It happened on the last day of my exam! and It almost spoil my mood and distract my emotional! 

Other than the "pek cek" moment, it turns to sad moment,which that when you found that everyone can do the questions but not you. I think it is the most down moment as well. It hurts you, or makes you keep blaming on yourself. You know you cannot do anything about that, but you will still feeling down. Is our emotion being influence so easily by the circumstances? I doubt. You might say no, even myself. But when you really come across that kind of situation, what do you react? Will it become more comfort when your peers tell you that they don't know how to solve the questions too? 

Sadness will not always follow anyone. There must be always a change of role of our emotion and feeling. Yea, so, the happiest moment for students is that everyone is free from the exam, and start planning what to do or where to go to shopping and celebrate. 

There is always a "harsh time" in our life. Everyone has to face it and tackle it. Without any solution, the matter won't be able to solve, and it will keep following you. It will make you feel more stressful when you procrastinate. So, I'm happy that I've go through this "harsh time" ( for this moment I think it is a 'quite' "harsh"). Finally, I'm able to enjoy the happy moment, which is go crazy with tetris.

.. Even though, you might not playing with it, anymore. ..

给我一点时间

我知道我脱离了这里有一段时间，但我没有忘记这个让我挥洒自如的平台。

我有跟多话要说，我有很多事情要分享。
我有无数的词汇，等待着时机掀开。
我有太多的诱惑，使我不断摸索。

虽然我沉默，但我没有离开过。

因为我知道，这是…
这是我的。
都是我的。

给我一点时间，就一点时间。
我会将这里的一切，再次填满。
我会，
我一定会。


因为我有太多，

太多未解的事。

——警囍讯——

一直想着要写一写他们俩，把他们也记录在我部落格里。拖了很久，几乎忘了。直到我看见故事书中间夹的一张卡片。嗯，又是一张明信片。不，应该说，它是警囍讯。是一个关于一对恋人的故事、祝福。<3 nbsp="nbsp">

——看见你们，我很感动。甚至感觉幸福。——

那天下午，在出门时，突然走到信箱前。突然看见了一张‘卡’。我很快的把手伸进去把卡片拿了出来。
感谢May子&Ken的体贴。

——因为你们，再次让幸福传到这片土地的各个角落。——

曾经上过May子两堂课；听过她现场主持一次；一次outdoor节目；早上几乎都听到她做节目。
我记得有谁说过，主持嘛…我们要学习的对象是May子，因为她很会自high。明明不好笑的，她自己会很容易的笑起来，也使到整个场面笑起来。简单来说，May子 = 笑 XD
也因为这样的说法，我记得汶静在面试时的表格是这样写的:
最喜欢的DJ：May子
原因： 因为她会自High

结果，我又笑了。 =D

虽然我不懂你们俩，但是你们都是我应该学习的对象。你们那么久的恋情，加上实实在在的距离，还走到这一步。在旁的我觉得真的很不容易。当你在你和你父亲的访问节目中，我甚至很讶异你几乎每个星期都会到新加坡一趟。觉得那以成了清茶淡饭。

——仰慕你的坚持和耐力。当然还有那一份爱。——

我想这是爱的魔力。在他们身上，距离，不是一个使到感情变淡的因素；反而增进了彼此的思念与珍惜。

愿你们都幸福快乐的之余，感谢你们，让我感动了那份珍贵的爱。 你们实在太大爱了！

谢谢你们。祝福你们。

幸福要自保，结婚要趁早！ XD 

每一件事，都会有结束；每一天，都是新的开始。

你在乎的是过程、开始？还是结果？好像很少人会提到开始。很多人都太注重成绩。换句话说，每当我们做的一件事，或是朝去的目标，都是因为我们想要它的结果，它的成绩。
所以，当一件事情接近尾声的时候，很多人都会忽略了是怎么开始的。
有时候我们把重心放到太后端，往往我们会达不到，因为，太远了。

两个星期的假期，我过得愉快。我希望到时回宿舍的时候，不会再哭。但我想，就算哭，那也习惯了。若扶持，谁能？

两个星期内除了去第七届海外华文书市是和朋友一起的，我想其他时间我都在家里。或许我还没有准备出去闯的冲动。我只知道，我要很珍惜家一的切。

和中学朋友一起，我很开心。我们没有每一个时刻都在一起，但是见面时还是有话题。

当时的我们都以很自在，以很放松的心情走路；所以每踏一步路都很轻，没有负担。因此，一天的书展，已足够填满过去的疲累。而且，心里还满满的。

满满的快乐；
满满的欢笑；
满满的能量；
还有，
满满的，惊喜。

当然少不了那——满满的脚痛。

满满的，一切都满满的。
希望这些正面的满满，可以支撑我接下来的学期。

谢谢我的朋友们，给我那么多的满满。=)

=P

0078的——明信片

我把1分钟的录音寄了给你。原因是因为我很想谢谢你。我不知道你有没有真的放在心上，但一直以来我很努力的想要感谢你一直的好。
我答应你，
我不会只记得你一时的好，我会记牢，你一直以来的好。

长大以后，我越来越不敢过于要求别人做我想要的，却又做不到事，因为我觉得会麻烦他人。我怕麻烦人家，毕竟人家没有义务要帮我。也因为如此，我只要求了你帮我买书。虽然我很想很想要到签名，甚至出席现场，但是是我自己无法出席，而且还放朋友飞机。所以我还是收嘴了。

不懂为什么，到最后我还是跟你说了签书会的详情——地点，时间，谁，做什么。而且，说了我想要签名。但是我依然很担心我这样是否很过分。但是你二话不说，就哈哈笑地给我回答说，你知道了。因为你已经看过了节目表。我真的很惊讶，但是我并没有抱太大的期望，因为排队不是每个人都要的。

我知道你总会尽你所能，所以我很放心的缺席了当天的签书会。我甚至忘了看时间，直到我收到一封来自你信息。你说，你搞定好了。而且有个礼物给我。我嘴角上扬，开心得对着电话笑起来。

我还是问了是否多人，“要排队排很久吗？”之类的问题。如果很多人，我会很内疚得要你付出你的时间。但是你没回答，回答的都是不重要的问题。【囧】

后来想起你说的礼物。礼物？我想是明信片。谢谢你，你一定是首100位。

我很放心的过了星期一。隔天看到你，我很惊讶的，看见你拿出来的不只是书和明星片。真的，我完全在状态以外。

过后，我就笑笑的说再见。（PS,信息上说的都是真的。）

我想说的，不是只是谢谢的谢谢。而是很谢谢你总是那么用心。在你听到录音之前，我FB信息他说，我很感谢他的细心，让我感受到了朋友的用心。我告诉他收到这份惊喜的喜悦和感动。只是，他没有念出。

忍耐若是为了理想，就不是委屈——0078
0078:: 我希望，你排队，真的不委屈。 =P
我从来不知道你有这样的运气。以后有机会，请沾点给我。 =P 
(我又麻烦你了)。 =P

我要问，为什么写不是华文名？=P

我觉得它应该归你 =/

我答应你，

我不会只是记得你一时的好，

我会记牢，你一直的好。=P

我还是很罗嗦了 >.<''

我喜欢你

I'm not good in language. I dont have much talent in language learning. I think, maybe, my basic in both Malay, English and Mandarin is not stable and solid enough. and as I grow, I didnt spend much time in polishing my language.

I always admire those who can speak any language fluently and write attractively because I couldn't. and those people are always around me.  Many of them suggested me to be hardworking to read and be brave to speak out, and they guarantee this steps will slowly help me to improve any language.

I have spent much time listen to my BM teacher's instruction and followed what she said. In order to score, I try my best in not only reading, but also memorize those essay sentence by sentence. I still can remember what I wrote in my BM spm paper was those what I've memorized for months. I mixed everything together to become a complete essay. I was really proud of my teacher at the moment when I got my SPM result. and now, still, I'm proud of her.

I've used to speak in Mandarin since I was young. It is my mother tongue. I counldn't remember I can speak English when I was in kindergarten even though my parents said that I spoke in English very well that time. Mainly, I speak Mandarin with my family and friends.

But now, it has slightly being changed. Every subjects in our syllabus is in English, my surrounding always revolve around English language. I also met difficulties as I felt a surge of pressure acting on me when I was attending her class. I'd heard about the people talking about how strict is her during her class and etc. I'm really afraid of doing her exercise and I mind her wording during her lecture. Seriously, I'm really afraid of her.

When it comes to week 12, I think I was having presentation about unemployment. I prepared it for many times to avoid making errors and try to get marks from her. I try to present confidently and look at her calmly. My happiness gained slowly when I saw her smiled and nodded. I smiled.

When week 13, Friday, we dont have much work to do. We looked at our key concept II, and do some simple exercise. She let us go earlier, I think. and I remember, before that, she said something and required to take picture together. I felt that her character has been changed in my heart. Although she is strict, but I think I like her at the end of semester. Even, I felt abit sad when I walked out the class and said, thank you miss.