谢谢

或许我物质上的享受和精神上的满足有差异。
但事实上，我有的实在太多了。
虽然总被许多困扰中迷惑了。
实实在在，美好的事物，在我身边。

当我需要帮助的时候，有人给我扶持。
当我觉得疑惑的时候，有人为我分析。
当我需要爱的时候，还会有人给我很窝心的回答。

谢谢你们。我身边的每一个你。

I have a junior

I have a junior.  She is a good student, intelligent & smart girl.  Besides, she can handle things wisely and think further.  In fact, she gave me a good impression.

I seldom go close with my junior.  I like them, I love them.  But I've never show that, I guess.  Some senior are very close to their junior, some treat their junior friendly and some strictly.  I guess, maybe, I'm the un-involve person.  I seldom involve in their activities and social talk.  I seldom go closer and talk with their studies, family and friends issue.  Sometimes, I think I'm unfamiliar, too far from their social.  I guess, that's why I am always behind.

Back to the junior I've mentioned early.  No doubt, she gives me a good impression.  I know she works really hard for both academic and co-curriculum.  and so, I like her active and positive attitude shown in front of me.  Even though, I know, sometimes, she is quite clumsy, but in the end, surely she is able to manage everything. (Y)

Why am I talking on her in this post? hah! I just have a short conversation with her in Facebook.
I couldn't remember I cried when I got my SPM result until she raise up the topic; I couldn't know I my cry is so miserable to her.  LoL!
Here that is::

Hey girl, you are so funny! haha!
Thanks for bringing up such memorable yet funny events in this night.
I miss the moment when I meet up my friends, keep sharing the result one another, and say: hey, you change a lot.

Maybe I should visit you when your turn to take your SPM result!! *grin*

 short, but nice talk.

=)

12月的到来

有些东西看似很多、很慢、很长；但实际上它过得很快。一不留意，它就溜走了。

就像时间。就拿年份来打给比方。

在年头时，总会觉得，啊~又一年的。今年我要……我会……怎样怎样等等。若是你中间没有什么刻苦铭心或是难忘的记忆片段，那么当你回想2012年，那该是过得如一般的水流一样，流过，就真的冲走了。若2012年的整体回忆似水流，那么那些刻苦铭心及你记得的回忆必是水流中的石头，被水流撞击而产生的砯砯声——凶则惊涛拍岸，波涛汹涌；甜则擦出火花，留下永恒。

对我而言，2012年，还好。不算有太大的转折。至少我可以应付。当然当中有我迷恋的、厌倦的、无奈的。但总算熬得来。我迷恋我有的野蛮；我厌倦烦人的对人处事；我无奈事事无法预料。

所以又来到了今天，2012年的最后一个月。我，要过得充实点。为水流中，产生更多更美的涟漪。让它细水长流，慢慢地流，暖流。

那你呢？=)

这是两年前的照片。
书桌上，还有add math的痕迹。
今天，它不一样了。
=)

结婚纪念日

那一天，她的生日。还想该怎么和她庆祝。结果早上起身，她和他却不见了踪影。我想，又去拍拖了。

他们没有任何交代，只是说晚上不用等他们吃饭。结果，我们自己吃了。

我不晓得他们去哪里，也不晓得他们哪来的力气和精力在户外走近一大半天。印象中，那天天气还算炎热。

大概晚上十点多，他们才回家。只见她手上拿了一把鲜艳的花，脸上，还笑着春风。我问他们去了哪里。她只说：“哎，很累”。我看她过得还算快乐，所以她回来以后我都没有打扰她。要知道，她脾气，不是好惹的。

不懂在怎样误打误撞的情况下，我在她的房间闲着。虽然我觉得有点不对劲，也对他们今天的去向起了很大的好奇心。但我选择原封不动。

他突然说，我告诉你们一些东西。不过你们不要跟爸爸妈妈讲，因为我自己会说。我们就点点头。他继续说：“拿，这些就是今天我和你姐大（我叫大姐的叫法）拍的照。今天咧，我跟你姐大求婚了，她也答应了”。

这不但对她而言是个惊喜；对于我而言，也是个很大的惊喜。虽然我只是顺便的点点头，似不在乎的样子。但其实心里却有种说不出的感觉。当然，我很开心。只是，这很突然。

我看着照片，就这样，压抑了我当时的情绪。因为看照片说的故事实在太精彩了。他说他因此而筹备了半年，当然精彩。我晓得，他是多么谨慎、仔细、有计划的人。他找来的飞机师，租了飞机、做了一个长长的banner……及不算金钱上的花费；这对他精神上的消耗，可从来也不少的。

我深信这种人不多。但偏偏她遇上了一个。她，是幸福的。

所以她就在一年后的29/07/2012到婚姻注册局注册；11/11/2012在SS2摆酒；25/11/2012正式结婚。

这，是他们俩，结婚的事。一件，幸福的事。

结婚那件事……

是他们俩的事……

是被大家祝福的一件事……

Aggressive

在迎接十一月的来临，我心想，但愿这个月都顺利、愉快

。

就在十一月的第一个星期，心情起伏已经很大。

像天气一样……时阵雨，时放晴。

我很想积极地表达出我的情绪与情感。

但我做不到。

我总是觉得，要表达出自己的思绪，要顾虑的事情很多。

既不让对方难堪（除特例）；也不让自己受伤。

这是一个很难衡量的天枰。

所以很多时候，我暗示。但不表明。

但有人总会觉得，你不说出来，对方怎知道你在想什么呢？

嗯，对，没错。

但同时，

我想，该人的观察能力或许不太好。

·1我不当面表达出你的行为如何使我渐渐地失望，一方面因为我不想你难过；令一方面是因为那失望几乎变成绝望。

·2我迟迟不往前踏步因为我发现就连自己也不知道自己想要什么，我根本没有资格想你们要求些什么。即使我不快乐，但我bear with it。因为你们有你们的立场。只是我的想法和你们不同。

·3你说我已不像以前的我。我很惊讶，因为我觉得自己根本没改变。但随着环境的迁移，我只能说，或许你，不懂。

·4我很想发泄完一切的不满。但我几乎忘了该如何积极地发泄。

真的，就这样，我丢下了statistics。

腻了。淡了。变了。累了。

虽然失望、虽然难过、虽然无助。

但我会相信，之后会更好。

感谢身边总是有些动听的歌曲

让我沉淀下来。

剪发

有人说，头发似烦恼丝。这是否代表着头发越多、越长，就意味着烦恼越多、越长久？

两年前，我剪短了头发。仿佛剪断了以往的烦恼，一刀两断似的。

是我嫌烦恼不够多吗？

我又留长了头发。

但上天仿佛疼惜着我，总是要在头发留得有些长度时，一段一段地，把它剪得一刀两断。

留了大半年的头发，好像功亏一篑。

不怕，它只是短了些许。

与以往相比，还是长了。

或许我就是自寻烦恼，把头钻去烦恼丝去。

其实一切的都只是，

只要自己喜欢，就好。

Tetris Yo~

Times always fly, with or without conscious. I'm glad that I've pass through these "harsh time". I put a quotation mark at the word because it seems not really harsh, it is just a hyperbole to exaggerate how I feel/view the time this week. In fact, it is a hard time, but not really hard though.. sounds contradict.. But, seriously, this midterm has brought me to the top of the hill, and let me fall on the slope.. (sweat)

Exams is always the 'harsh time' for students like me; 'relax time' for teachers. However, it is always the 'bad' time for teachers after the exam; and 'best time' for the students. It is just a circular role. That's why, it is quite fair for everyone, at least in this statement. =)

I don't like compare. But comparison is one way to check whether you are right or wrong after the test.

The "pek cek" moment is that when you found out your answers or steps is different from others! and what you tend to say is: "What's wrong WEIH!", "Ya MEH?", "You sure AR?" and etc with the "AR, MEH, LOR" at the end of the sentence. It sounds funny and the moment seems familiar to me in this exam. It happened on the last day of my exam! and It almost spoil my mood and distract my emotional! 

Other than the "pek cek" moment, it turns to sad moment,which that when you found that everyone can do the questions but not you. I think it is the most down moment as well. It hurts you, or makes you keep blaming on yourself. You know you cannot do anything about that, but you will still feeling down. Is our emotion being influence so easily by the circumstances? I doubt. You might say no, even myself. But when you really come across that kind of situation, what do you react? Will it become more comfort when your peers tell you that they don't know how to solve the questions too? 

Sadness will not always follow anyone. There must be always a change of role of our emotion and feeling. Yea, so, the happiest moment for students is that everyone is free from the exam, and start planning what to do or where to go to shopping and celebrate. 

There is always a "harsh time" in our life. Everyone has to face it and tackle it. Without any solution, the matter won't be able to solve, and it will keep following you. It will make you feel more stressful when you procrastinate. So, I'm happy that I've go through this "harsh time" ( for this moment I think it is a 'quite' "harsh"). Finally, I'm able to enjoy the happy moment, which is go crazy with tetris.

.. Even though, you might not playing with it, anymore. ..