Today my life begins

I remember this song was recommended by one of my friend, who doesn't always show up in my daily life, but will definitely show up when he found out that I'm facing some difficulties in my life. He is someone whom I don't need to worry, but knowing his is there to give me some thoughtful insights or suggestions when I need it.

Been facing lots of challenges and difficulties in the past few years. It was one of the most difficult time I've gone through. I couldn't express myself. End up keeping everything with myself. Knowing there're people there and willing to help me out, but I just refused and keep myself away from the hands out there.

I used to be someone like that. Yes, I am.

This song really helps in healing the wound. Even now. I feel so uneasy and worried sometimes. This happened when I entered a new chapter of my life journey. Been stepping into the so called reality world for two months, exactly two months. There're lots of adjustments in my living style.

Learning process has never end. I keep adjust and adapt into the environment, with a strong yet raw heart.

Sometimes I think about the old time.. Thinking about the up and down in the past. I realised the so called 'hardest time' I've been through is just a small challenges. It wasn't as tough as I thought - as I grew and become better from what I've gone through in the past.

Thanks to close deadline set and the different lecturers I've met - I'm able to work so independently and become so result driven in my career development now.
Thanks to the educations given by my parents - I'm able to manage myself and be discipline in every new setting where the superiors valued.
Thanks to the ruthless rejections and objections voice from anybody else - I'm able to become stronger and more individualistic, as to prepare myself to the reality world.
Thanks to the hard time and - I'm able to understand the meaning behind every up and down, and get to become a better person in my life.

Things happened for a reason. I believe.
No matter what happen, there're ways to tackle it.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. 

I will break the chains that blind me

and 

Today My Life Begins.

Thank you the one who recommended this song to me. 

It heals mentally and psychologically sick  people.

"You can count on me like one, two, three

I'll be there

And I know when I need it

I can count on you like four, three, two

And you'll be there

'Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah"

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Spring

Have been wanting to post up some thoughts or reflections that I've been experienced lately.

I wrote something, but yet to be completed.

So I just keep it as a draft.

As usual.

And FB reminds me of the start of the spring.

I've fond of things that represent 'new' or 'beginning'.

For instance, first day of the month, first day of the week.

Same goes to the first day of spring. 

Yey..

(Although there're no four seasons in Malaysia, 

But knowing it is the first day of spring still make my day happy and cheerful.)

Been telling myself that I need time to figure out and been allowing myself to practice try and error in the past few months.

It is more than enough.

I guess.

Shouldn't give myself so much excuses.

I believe that nobody understand you better than yourself.

If you don't know about yourself,

how can you expect people to understand you and live up to your expectation?

So once I've decided and found my way, I should go.

Too much hesitation would ruin my progress and probably end up with nothing.

It could go worse.

Get a new start from today.. 

Keep moving on..

···Persistence  ···Perseverance  ···Consistence

She says.

I know my way.

I know my direction.

I have the answer.

Hence I shall move on.