Mesej dari Cikgu; Mesej kepada Cikgu

I went to school today. Everything remain the same, the scenery, the way that I walk to lobby once I stepped into school. The only different is the cloths and the shoes that I wore is not prefect uniform and black shoes anymore.

After I have done everything, the moment, when I push the office door, surprisingly, I saw someone. We greet each other. and I smile because I'm happy to meet her. I'm most grateful to her sacrifice.

I remember the story about . I also remember the every monday after school. I remember how she teaches us to right and . 

I fall asleep during her class sometimes. Although she knew everyone is sleepy and not paying attention during the lesson, but, she still trying hard to do her best and wake our my mind up by telling us some meaningful stories that I mentioned just now and some techniques to answer the question during exam.

When SPM is around the corner, I'm still worry about my BM. I want to score this subject but I dont think I can. I know my BM is not good and I'm not putting effort on it also. Few months before SPM, I'm still hanging here and feeling happy go lucky. But when it is really near to the corner, I look to the problems seriously. I tried my best and followed her instruction, but, sometimes, I'm lazy.

I read , highlight new vocabularies and useful sentences. Even, I memorized the common essays and some essays that my friends and I spot for trials and SPM. During SPM, I threw out everything that I'd memorized. But I felt that I didnt do best in both Paper 1 & Paper 2 during SPM. I'm so sorry to her. I said to myself in my heart. 

and Sometimes, she forced us to read the essay. She will by go through some passages with us in the class instead of letting us to write an essay ourselves without knowing how to start the introduction and ending. She pointed out our mistakes by going through one by one like kindergarten when we are writing essay in the class.

She asked us to do "Karangan Spontan" instead of writing to make sure every students are active during the lesson but not sleeping and "Ponteng". She asked us to do presentation about "Komsas" ourselves. We always have sharing sections during her class and she is very generous and open-minded even when we say some sensitive issues she will talk about it too with her point of view. 

She said she knew our level of Malay language. Everyone of us. Every students in the class.

I saw how serious is she during the lesson; I saw her responsibility towards her jobs.
No doubt, she is a good teacher.

I'm really proud for being taught by her for 2 years.

But, she told me that today is her last day in Yu Hua.
"WHAT? WHY?!",  I asked her immediately.

She moves to another school in Bangi. I know, it is good for her because near her house.

I'm sad; but I'm proud.

"All the best, cikgu.", I end the conversation.

Terima kasih atas jasa dan sumbangan bukti cikgu. Saya tak tahu bagaimana pulangkan balik jasa cikgu dan masa yang anda korban untuk kami. Walaupun I bercakap and menulis dalam Cina and Inggeris lebih berbanding dengan bahasa, tapi saya tak akan lupa jasa and nilai-nilai yang anda ajar dalam kelas dan kepentingan bahasa di Malaysia. Ribuan terima kasih kepada Cikgu yang saya sayangi dan kasihi. =)

again, I'm proud for being taught by her. and so, I hope there are more students get these advantages and be proud also after being taught by her.

Students should always be proud when they meet a good teacher. 

and always, 

appreciate.

428 bersih 3.0 大集会

为了要求选举改革，从上次的709引申到今天的428静坐大集会 (净选盟 3.0）。 这次的Bersih 3.0 既联合了709的改革选举的后续和关丹的莱纳斯（Lynas）事件。同样的时间，不同的地点，大马人民聚集参与这项大集会。昨天在面书上看见大家都在share说，在吉隆坡各大地区的人数逐渐增加。看起来这次的集会果然不简单。

睡觉醒来，一打开面书都看到出席Bersih 3.0的朋友报告在现场的状况和消息。今天的面书总是活跃于净选盟的消息。看见许多朋友都有出席，当然还有包括很多大马的艺人。应该好好表扬这些勇于出席净选盟大集会的人民。他们都非常地勇敢表达出自己的心声和对大马的政治态度。

净选盟之前已经表明立场8大求诉；但政府却没有达到。人民反对莱纳斯在大马的运作；但是工程继续。大家都说政府吃钱；但我看到的是政府没有真正去聆听人民的心。很简单的道理，那要怎样取得人民的选票？难道真要要让人民相信你真的吃钱。钱真的重要过人民素质吗？不，或许你真的没有素质。

据朋友还有许多网友的理清后，他们都说集会的一开始是非常顺利的。直到净选盟的主席安美嘉，Ambiga说集会已达到目的，宣布集会解散后，事情一切由这一刻开始。

不知怎么搞的，人民冲向独立广场，Dataran Merdeka。又那么突然，警方发射催泪弹。直到电台新闻报道听见数名参与者已被逮捕、足部轻快铁站开始暂停行驶。一连串的事件联合起来，我只有在想，那里的情况怎么了？为什么会这样？

直到晚上，一幕幕的影片，一句句痛心的状态，我只要说，很难过。

不管怎样

明明说好这是一场静坐大集会，但却招来了悲剧的收场。感觉非常痛心；既很遗憾。

到底集会成功了吗？都不再是重点。

只想说：
警方不应该发射垂泪弹及水炮驱散人民、更不应该攻击殴打人民。更更不应该使用恶行来成功逮捕集会者。
政府不应该这样打压人民。
人民有权表达立场，但是应该要有纪律以显示人民素质。

因为谁也不想看到这样的收场。

一个有纪律、言论自由、多元及民主的社会，不会是这样。
一个有纪律、言论自由、多元及民主的社会，不会是这样。
一个有纪律、言论自由、多元及民主的社会，不会是这样。

政治社会 . . .
心淡了~

不一

奇怪的夜晚

在接近凌晨一点，

我听着随电台播放的歌曲

一首接一首

奇怪的是，

无论歌曲怎么动听；

旋律如何熟悉

就是无法投入

因为脑里想的

都是千里之外   的思绪

直到隔天早上，

才发现

一整夜，

我随着电台一歌曲

睡了。

在两者不一的情况下

我睡了。

Rain

Finally it rains after a few days of hot weather

It doesn't rain heavily outside

Just a gentle rain

It makes the surrounding moist

Sounds a bit gloomy

A bit gray

and I could heard some soft thunders from far away

Slowly,

it stops

Left only thunder sound

In a dark night

Far away

感受在，如果你还觉得不幸福...

你有没有觉得

有没有发觉

有没有发现

有没有想过

有时候，

静静看着长长的数学题

一个人解开看似复杂的数学题

也是一种幸福

也是一种乐趣

因为至少，

你有健康，有吃穿住，

没有经历战争、监狱、饥荒、酷刑

人生也不是如此吗？

感受在

如果你还觉得不幸福...

109，做一个有责任的人

时间说快不快，傻傻的，冒冒然地，第一学期就这样的结束了。我很开心，也很兴奋。同时却感叹时间就这样流失了。所谓的“这样”，或许当中我没有好好把握、或许我没有好好利用时间、或许我没有把每一天活得很灿烂，或许。明知道时间不会倒流，明知道凡事都要把握当下。但总是觉得不对，不够好。可以说我有自知之明，也可以说我鸡蛋里挑骨头。

15个星期里，拿了5个科目。5个科目分别都让我学习到了不同的知识和器材；见识了大学与中小学的分别；遇见不同的人事物。我站在这一刻的步伐，回顾15星期前所走过的路；再眺望眼前的路。有时我会很迷茫，因为不知道我自己做的选择对不对，走的路会不会后悔。因为我需要付一切责任，未来没有人会帮我挡，一切靠自己，所以我有点紧张。（但是感谢家汶唤醒了我，给了我一个很重要的提醒。）

就算再给我选择，我依然会选择这里。我觉得，要做什么事情，尤其关于到自己的，都是时候自己选择，懂得去分辨和辨识哪一个是自己要的，自己能的，自己会的。到底哪一个决定才是对自己既对他人也好的方案。最终要记牢的事情是，自己要对自己做的负责任。做个勇敢，有责任感的人。

就这样过去了。

2012年的第109天，你，做过了什么？选了什么？

剩下的257天，你怎么走？

【We are not naughty】

I've been here for 14 weeks, nearly 15 weeks now. Basically I'm going to finish my 1st semester already after few days more. Although 14 weeks is very short, but I'd learnt lots of things and experiences in both academic and relationship.

In these 3 months, I met lots of things, and it reflects a lot to myself. I'm appreciate because I'm here; I can get what I want and what I pursue. What problems that I met were minimize or even zero compare to others. 

We watch movie last week. . Three of us. We has been long time never watch movie in cinema together. Maybe few years ago we did. But the feeling between now and last time are different, the scenes are different, the atmosphere is also different. We've grown up; our life go on; we think differently.

Time always make things change easily and unconsciously. We are going to walk into our own path way, facing different future with different people. Although we are selfish. We wish we can always together, face problems together, do everything together, just maintain whatever things we had and we did. But we cannot expect the other follow our own way and step. 

When the movie go to climax, I look at them, and I smile. Because we of us already grown up. We can walk ourselves. and in the deep of heart, we know we appreciate each others. We know each others. Although I kept quiet. Because < We are good friends >.

Nervous makes mistake

Had lots of quiz last week. At the same time, a lot of assignments and presentations to be prepare. It makes me can't breath. Everyday I am rushing, fighting with time. I told myself to do my best in everything to make no regret. We, as human, always make mistakes easily. Basically, making mistakes is not a big deal as if you know what mistake you did and avoid to repeat the same thing.

BUT, i made a big mistake. I stood on the stage, in front of everyone, i spoke out my opinions, my standpoints and arguments during competition; i stood on the stage every Monday to lead the students to read Rukun Negara. I enjoyed it., therefore I'm not afraid.  I was trained, and I'd overcome the fear that lots of people might face which is nervous. However...

BUT today, I made a mistake that I shouldn't make! I am very nervous during my math quiz. In result, I cannot prove the equation, I cannot complete solve it. and I made careless mistake! I can compromise, if I do not know how to do the question. But, in fact, the question is easy for me and I shouldn't make mistake on it. Although I haven get my paper back, but I'm disappointing.

I fail myself, because of nervous. Nervous makes mistakes!

But, I tried to make everything positive and I told myself not to get tension easily whenever and whatever I would face in future. There are still a lot of challenges in front of me. Likewise, after taking the SPM result, I never expect to get this kind of result and I really satisfy with it. But, no matter how happy am I, my life still have to go on. It is a process in life. After enjoying, we still have to move forward. Conversely, after sadness, we also have to look further and wider for better life. There is a negative; and here come, with positive =)

"Positive thinking will let you do everything better

than negative thinking will"

Zig Ziglar