有点佩服自己这个时候还清醒着… 多久没有让自己每个晚上都比较迟睡了？几个月？嗯… 

我想念那时很爱睡却没有睡，一直不要睡，像现在这样呆到那么迟，甚至更迟的夜晚… 有讲不完的话… 天马行空的想象… 

很辽阔… 很自在… 很自己… 更总要的是，很

开心。

发自内心的快乐

最初的。

于

14年某月某日

Elmo

我想是你，我知道你很关心我。你曾对我说过一番又一番提及我的话，我都有在听，都有记下来好好存放在我的脑袋里。

现在的我过得好一些了，真的有好一些。虽然没有完全痊愈，但是我会时时提醒自己现在应该做的事，不放太多压力给自己。虽然很容易再次把自己逼去墙角，但我会ok起来的。我已经好很多了。
还是会很难喘气，还是会随时跌倒，还是会很容易疲累，还是会很脆弱。但是我会好起来的。

谢谢你让我哭得那么汹涌，无论在电话还是见面。除了你，学校里没有多少个人看见这一面的我。我想你是唯一一位，听见我哭得如此崩溃的那位。

我本来就很固执，我本来就很硬撑。我不知道接下来我做的对不对，好不好，但我一定会随时想起你。记得有一个这样的你出现在我的生命里，在我脆弱卑微的时候。真的。

有机会，我们一定会再见。

The Elmo。

The 大爷。

所有所有你教我的仿佛刚刚才发生。所有美好的，仿佛就刚发生，还热烫着，在我心里……

专

他哭了… 他决定不拿了… 他只想安安分分地做好一个学生的角色… 什么也不想想了… 难过伤心可以是必然，但呻吟就不是给自己的一个借口…

“陈美青，决定了就去做”

"Steady ah Jacquelyn Tan"

“你知道每当你做了什么就会有什么样的后果”

“你没有可能不知道，你知道的…”

“你是一个对自己有要求的人…”

这些话语一直都在我耳边回响… 

呼唤我的… 你要做到，你一定要做到；你可以做到，你一定可以做到。

•-•接下来什么也不做，就只是专一做好一件事。•-•

“能够做好一件事，已经是一件很棒的事。” “专一比专注更人性；比专情更实际”— 李欣怡

专一，是一种高尚思维的能力体现。—李欣怡

用手写“日记”

我没有彪民那么厉害出书写故事… 也不会像他用左手写的日记那样说故事…

我只会用手写的“日记”… 而且是右手… 一份，不需要我朗读的日记… 一份完完全全用我双手写画的“日记”… 也是一份说他人的“日记”…

我没有想到它会有这么厚… 

辛苦你了，听故事的人… 

那个
会听故事的人

There's s a long msg

I received a very long msg today when I on my whatsApp after class. It was really surprising. It's so long that just make me smile suddenly while talking to my friend (my hand was holding hp and checking whatsApp). It's too long until I just smiled at it without reading it because I want to find a good time to read the long meaningful passage. Haha.. It's really surprising to get such long reply. No one has sent me such long msg I guess. Probably yes, there is someone, but this is still surprising.

Alright, take good care there in don't know how many miles away from here and just make your life fully and just enjoy it. I don't need to talk much to you about all these because I know you will know it or even knew it more compare to me! So.. Just be the way you are. 

我不喜欢送机，也不习惯送机… 即使你问我，我会很坦然地告诉你我不要，因为我会震不住那个场面…无论头脑思绪有多清晰最后我也会看不清那个画面…

同样的，如果以后我有机会飞，或许需要飞，请任何一个你也不需要做这些送机的动作。

现在的你在机上了… 你会过得很好，一切都会很顺利的… 我会努力做着自己应该做的事，为后来铺路… 再一一实现承诺过要达成的目标… 

就像你说的，嗯，我们两年后，再见。

Acknowledge?  Acknowledge. 

那我们，先追各自的梦吧！

飞机上，你到几公里了？

Shed Tears

Another msg that makes me shed my tears on the spot when I read it. 

I dream about this person last night and I received a message from this person this afternoon. What a nice coincident.

Do you have strong six sense? Do you know something about me? 

I miss you dear. 

She is just so sweet sometimes. =) 

天天向上

叶剑峰对妈妈说：“妈咪你看，你有出现在书里面！”

妈妈：“哪里有？”

叶剑峰翻到全家福的那一页，指给妈妈看

峰：“看到吗？这个是你… gor gor… … Jie Jie…”

妈妈：“可是我没有这件衣服…”

峰：“你穿姐姐的…”

妈妈：“噢！我有在里面… 呵呵哈哈呵呵…”

峰：“对啊，你在里面！”

妈妈看着照片笑着，然后把书关起来。继续笑着看风景… 

妈妈是开心的

隔天，

峰：“妈咪你看，你在书里面…”

妈妈：“哪里有？”

峰指着全家福的那页：“你看… …”

妈妈：“可是你没有这件…”

峰：“姐姐的…”

… … … … 

这个情景循环着

妈妈又看着照片笑了，盖起了书，笑着继续看风景。

每一天，妈妈都会因为看到自己在书里面感到开心而笑起来…

每一天，

循环着。

叶剑峰： “人生只有 now AND later， 没有 now OR later.”

附：努力过活，天天向上。

Love life

People who are looking for me recently might find it difficult to reach me because I seem like missing. =/

Some people claim that they couldn't get any latest info or update from any network. I'm just like disappear all in a sudden. 

Yup, I wasn't here for awhile. I wasn't active in social network as I did last time. I may seem to be very passive in responding to Facebook msg because I didn't on Facebook for some times. I'm sorry if it takes some times to reply your message recently.  

----- ----- -----

I experienced lots of new things, explored the world outside and tried to step away from my comfort zone again and again this holidays. This is sort of like challenging myself by doing new things. Most importantly, I'm hoping to do something new, learning something new --- transferring my previous stresses and pressure into another form, ways of releasing it. 

I've been down for months, keep answering why am I look pale and become thinner type of questions. In order to get rid of it, I decided to choose another way of living myself. That's why I'm doing what I've not been doing previously. Although what I was doing throughout this holidays might be somethings that lots of people have been done and experienced it long time ago at my age, or perhaps people might found that I'm actually doing nothing, useless and aimless stuff other than wasting time and energy. People might also not understand the reasons behind of  every movements that I went through.

But guess what? I enjoy it. I found a new self. I do enjoy it. Just by experiencing the new stuff: environment, culture, people and etc. Throughout the days, I realized that everything that I see, everywhere I go and everyone I approach will surely bring me some inspiration or lessons to learn. Learn something new and adding knowledge for my life.

and this girl remind me to love life again. =) 

You're just pretty as you are my dear.

世上只有

=) =D ;D 

**you make me cry; make me smile; make me feel the love is true; 谢谢你的关顾; 与及无偿的爱护**

I don't know what's wrong, or probably it's just right. This song keep playing in my mind now..

Yes, you make me smile again. I believe in "the power of words" since I know you. Not because you are great in wording, but because of the moment when my words touched you and when the moment you cry in front of me. But it got reversed this time. Thanks for your words, it brought a big delight to me today. 

You made my day, just solely through words.

Whoever will reply message at the time of 3.30AM?! Yes, it's me. The always naughty and the lovely one. =P

Thank you. I feel like keep saying thank you to you because other than that I don't know what can I do in order to show my gratitude towards you.  =)

21/7/2014 & 22/7/2014

可遇不可求

I like this song with the title of "悄悄告诉你" by 范玮琪

I like her a lot actually. 

In term of her physically appearance (she's very tall in my eyes, in fact she is, and pretty. She is gorgeous) , the image that she brought up in the public (elegant, gentle & generous) and also her song. 

She might not be the best singer or the 天后group of singer. She might not have the power that A Mei and Jolin own. But her songs always impress me, touch my heart, the deeply heart. 

I can heard of the sincere and true hearty message that she wants to convey through her voice and the song. I was  convinced by her sincere since long ago.

How often we meet this kind of people in our life? How can we? 

Like people always say::

很多时候，这些都是可遇不可求的~

Cards

I was asked to choose three cards to represent the past, now and future among hundreds of card the other day. 

I choose a seaside view with footsteps, an open book with blank pages and a wide view of sky and mountain, with a rainbow on the right side. 

The past has overed, the present is what I need to play now and the future is not far from now. It's coming after this. Very fast, very soon. 

What do the cards mean? Don't tell me you know it because even myself can't answer it. 

How can I play the cards in hand now and ruled the game? 

如果你知道，在那之前，我做了什么… 你会不会也觉得惋惜？会不会也像我一样… 背着书包，走在阳光下拍照，进到室内自己一个人坐着，再勇敢地对自己笑一下，告诉自己，“你是幸福的”。

呼，又是一个美好的一天