说不出的相处方式

其实有时候就是这样

因为跟你太熟了，熟到烂了

所以很多时候我们无所不谈

所以很多时候我们互相干扰

所以很多时候我们都不担心距离有多遥远

所以很多时候

我们都像孩子一样

打打闹闹

那只是一种我们相处的方式

一种

说不出怎么样

就这样的方式 

;)

就像上图一样
我们经常
翻覆颠倒

彼此的世界

幸福 就好

好吧，终于做了这个决定

打从那天某月某日，我想我已经决定了

可是我想当时的我应该没有勇气去面对

但是我想说

从今天起
我们就过着各自拥有的生活和幸福吧

我看见了你拥有着你快乐的生活

还有你和你很要好的朋友的愉快写照

好吧，就这样定了

一切
幸福  就好

精辩6-后续

虽然筹备这个比赛几乎花上了大半年的时间，当中也发生了很多小插曲。

即使小插曲发生得再多丑陋，多复杂，多么难搞；

但最终得来的还有一份安慰，一份满足，一份感动。

很多人不明白为什么我硬要把自己塞进吃力不讨好的event身上

也不能了解为什么我就爱在场上和别人吵架

更难理解的是为什么要为了没有对与错，是与非的话题上争论

-

很多时候，

不是每件事情都必须要一个合理的解释；

不是每个人能够为自己想做和要做的事坚持下去；

也不是每个人知道坚持下去的理由和结果

走过的路，留下痕迹；

每体会到的经历，都是经验的累积

感恩我走过这段路，经历这体会。

一切

烙印

在我生命中

精辩6

续中学辩论后，还是回到了辩论的平台上。我很感谢有个再次让我回归于这个舞台上的机会，一个曾经让我挥洒自如的舞台上。虽然相较起来，我没有太多的比赛经验，也没有打过一场的稳定且的内容架构和挥霍那辩论技巧来攻打对方，可我打的每场比赛的画面依旧历历在目。不管它是校内校外的比赛、什么赛制，也不理时间过了多久，至今，我依然深存感激和感动。

这一次，我不再是场上的辩手。我只是个普普通通观赛的观众；一个负责按铃算时分的计时计分员；一个兼顾赛场的监场员；一个定时赶到赛场去封票的封票员；一个，一个小小的委员。

虽然我不需要像以往那样熬夜写稿找资料，也不用和队员商讨政策如何打好比赛；但担任筹委一值也没有相较起来的轻松。或许很多人认为办比赛很容易，而且精辩也有以往5年铺排好的名声和名气，根本不需要担心的太多。但是外面的人不知道，办一个亚洲华语辩论赛耗费多大；也不知道一天内要进行16场比赛，4场同步进行需要的工委和评审是多难找；更不知道在场赛者备赛的时候竞赛组在狂打电话确认评审；秘书处忙于填写报到表；膳宿组正编排着大家的住宿和食物；交通组正烦恼着隔天的巴士行程；执行组在确保每个大会司仪能够准时开赛还有许多幕后的工作和组别为精辩出的一份力。换来的只希望精辩6得以顺利进行。

虽然当中有不少失误，也有很多不足的地方。但庆幸的是，大家都可以互补不足，见招拆招地度过这惊险的6天。我想说：

竞赛组的Jeng Han, Vivian & Vincent：
真的很抱歉，我在这组感觉上没有太大地贡献。你们在评审室安排评审和重算分数的时候我都不在；更没有帮忙你们接送评审，帮忙通知评审隔天评的场次和时间。特别是在缺评审的那段期间，我根本没有头绪…真的很抱歉！><

Vivian, Janice, Apple, YY, Jing Yi：
有机会和你们混在CC Hotel里是一件很幸福的事。我从没想过我们可以混在一块儿，而且闹在一起。谢谢Vivian，因为没有女子陪我睡的晚上打算回来陪我；谢谢Janice，在三更半夜还清醒地教我会计；谢谢Apple，愿意和我分享很多有的没的，和你聊天让我感觉有无比的轻松辽阔；谢谢YY，总是配合我，让我有事没事YY地叫，然后说声我想念你 =P，谢谢Jing Yi, 在某个夜晚切苹果给大家吃，你切苹果的功力，赞！
真的，真的很高兴认识你们！ 谢谢你们~都是我爱的人~

Serene：
续“青花瓷”后，又真真切切地和你一起参与这次的精辩和打闹，真的很开心。谢谢你时不时地关心，还给我在课业上的鼓励和辅助，谢谢你，让我觉得好窝心。

Seng Yew：
你是一个很用心，有耐力的人。感谢的话不想多说，你做的大家都看得见。记得，得空时要放慢脚步，“有时候问题会很复杂，答案却很简单” ——PM, 2013.

其余的，没在这里提到的，相信我，我一定PM你了.. =P

精辩6-后续

Dilemma

I feel like writing something..

But I was restricted..

=X

It's time to sleep.

Otherwise, 

I couldn't wake up on time tomorrow.

Lesson learnt:

do not start everything LAST MINUTE.

Dilemma occurs easily

Especially you are constraint in the world

with 24 hours a day.

As you wouldn't know 

what would happen

next second.

Things might not as bad as you thought sometimes.

It has comes to the end of the semester. Almost every students is concentrating on their studies individually or in group.

Every of the semester start, I will be full of energetic and always tell myself to do better in a new semester and forget the 'not so good' past experiences. I keep the faith, and I start every new semester with positive thoughts and attitudes. This is one way of protecting self-esteem I guess. It helps me to believe that I can do better, and I must prove to myself that I really can do it. 

Things to be done is for myself and not others. 

Perhaps I'm not persevere in what I believe on, I tend to slack off at the mid of semester. Like this semester, my brain has totally off duty for few weeks after I had my midterm. I postponed lots of things and my behavior is more towards to passive and unproductive. I procrastinated my schedule. 

It takes times for me to regulate my behavior and rearrange my distort thoughts. 

I was quite regretful for spending time on unimportant matters and did not concern about my studies, just with a excuse that I need to relax myself. I believe most of us would give ourselves this kind of excuse, but it ruined my progress. I blamed myself for did my assignments badly, procrastinated and involved in irrelevant issues from studies and self improvement. 

Nevertheless, I'm grateful that I'm still able to differentiate what is right and wrong; what should I do and what I shouldn't and why I behave this way and not that way. 

Finals start today. It can be considered that it is the first time I enter the exam hall with the least nervousness, and with confidence. This is the time where I knew I did badly for assignments, which eventually affects my grade, but I still insist to put more effort and stand positively toward my finals. 

The carry marks was released one day before the exam. I was planning not to check it, but I checked in the end. Surprisingly the result is much better than what I've thought. It's really unexpected. 

Lesson told me,

Things might not as bad as you thought sometimes. 

Nadeje Mille Crepe

Hanging out with friends is one of the happiest moment that I wish I would always have in my uni life.

Although being alone with own self is one of the enjoyment, but I also appreciate to have the social time with others.

So, I'm glad to have the time to date with few of my friends and grab the chance to have girls talk. We went to Nadeje Cake Shop, which is not very far away from Damansara. We spent hours there, and enjoyed piece and piece of mille crepe with coffee and tea in the afternoon.


Meeting a group of friends and bond a firm friendship between one another isn't easy when we grow older and older. People come and go in our life. Everyone has different path to go, and we cannot expect they will stay forever with us.

I'm glad to meet friends in my uni life. Even though we always have disagreement on various of issues on academic and lived experiences, we still have lots of fun together most of the time. Thanks to them for introducing multiple of life challenges for me to tackle it out; creating different matters and allowing me encounter everyone of it in my university. Thank you. I've learnt a lot and gain a lot of experiences in life. 

Nadeje Cake House
B-01-01, Dataran 3 Two,
Jalan 19/1, Section 19
46300 Petaling Jaya.

Top left: Strawberry Chocolate ; Right: Double Chocolate
Bottom Left: Berry Berry Strawberry ; Right: Original

Original Flavor with Malacca Cafe Latte
The latte tastes really nice
I start missing it when I leave 

;')

I think I would like to have it alone one day.. =D 

or..

Focus is what I want

I thought my EQ is quite ok, at least at the range of the average people have. 

I perceive myself as a quite rational person, seldom get distracted by people and emotions. 

But

I found I have overestimated myself.

I am not that rational

and emotionally stable.. 

Especially when too much things squeeze together, 

and I don't know what should I handle first

and how tackle it without control by my emotion

focus

Just purely focus. 

Yes.

This is what I want.

First part & the second part of me

I like to talk.
I feel lovely and comfortable to talk with someone that I trust with.

In fact,
I can talk nonstop with those close friends. Regardless of daily matters or personal issues.

But I hardly believe on someone.
I build a protective wall whenever I meet people.
In fact, I can be quite defensive. No matter what and who you did to me.


I found the first part of me myself,
and my friends told me the second part of me.
Owh..

What I know myself VS how people see me.
Somehow, true.

卸妆

当一个人

化了妆

带着自信和优雅的姿态走向舞台上...

在舞台上

她是耀眼的

他是受注目的

可是

不管台上风光的时间有多长

卸妆后

你还是你

原始的自己

你好，

我是美青。

青花瓷 @ Cultural Night

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳
炊煙裊裊昇起 隔江千萬里
在瓶底書漢隸仿前朝的飄逸
 就當我為遇見妳伏筆

 天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳
月色被打撈起 暈開了結局
如傳世的青花瓷自顧自美麗 妳眼帶笑意
ツ

Thank you girls for giving me the chance to experience Chinese Traditional dance once in my uni life. It is fun, and I enjoyed it. Thank you. Especially thanks to Serene, my main partner in the dance. She gave me a lot of encouragement and compliment throughout the practice process. Honestly I'm quite stress and worry to have the solo part with her as she dances gracefully, but her partner, me, have no basic on dancing.

I feel grateful to have the opportunities to have fun with you all. <3 br="" nbsp="">

25/10/2013

cultural night

Sternburg's Triangular Theory of Love 之 冲上云霄 2

那天我翻滚记忆

勾起超多的回忆

有时候不是岁月不留人

而是自己不懂得如何珍惜和相处

有些事  有些时候

当你放手

就不是你的了

真的
难道不是吗？

……呵……

-------------------------------------------------------

有些爱

只有passion

没有intimacy和commitment

有些情

只有 intimacy

却没有 passion 和 commitment

有些人

只顾commitment

就忘了passion 和 intimacy 的重要

……啊……

谁拥有着3者都存在的

Complete Love

呢？

Sternburg's Triangular Theory of Love

之

冲上云霄 2

KFCYouthJam2013

Youth · Jam
Powered by YouthsToday.com

Currently attended a Youth Carnival by YouthsToday at Sunway University. It's the largest youth carnival in Malaysia, and it merged with lots of different projects, including competitions, incitement talks, entrepreneurship and etc. It collaborated with universities in KL, and sponsored by number of famous company like Groupon, RedBox, Chatime and other partners.

This is my first time engaging in a such big event in my university life. Tbh, it's quite disorganized, things turned to be very messy and everyone is lost and confusing about their job scope and purpose of attending the event. Nevertheless, I gained lots of experiences by joining this event and volunteer in one of their team.

I would never approach to the Director of Money Tree Asia Pacific Limited, Michael Reyes, and some inspire person, Jamal and Ahmed Bashir if I wasn't there. Their purpose of driven life motivate me to continue my life with energy and assiduousness. I was impressed by their stories and words.

 for them.

Also, I wouldn't have lots of fun with 8Team, FLY fm's host, RedBox & GreenBox's staff, AIESEC's volunteers if I weren't there. I really enjoy the delights of seeing how much fun they brought to everyone and seeing the cheerful facial expression on everyone's face. People are enjoying their life with happiness and joyfulness easily in the hall because it's surrounded by lots of positive energy. See, sometimes, having a happy life is just easy as that. =)

Throw out all negativism, start grabbing all the positive energy from your surrounding.
Have a positive attitude, towards your life. =)

YouthJam Roadshow @ HELP Uni
Sources: 8Team's Facebook

HELP Uni's Youth Army with 8Team
& Zhiee (the girl beside me) =D
Sources: 8Team Facebook

Brown & Cony's spokesperson =P
ignore the food and drinks on the table.. Every volunteers got chatime and KFC for lunch..
=D

Tata~
Got limited Youthstoday shirt also and some samples and vouhers from redbox & Himalaya!
Oh! and a pack of maggi mee.. LoL! =P

Ta-ta!
Cony, Powpow & Brown in the house!
Thanks brown for giving me the balloon even though I poke you.. LoL!!
*HuG*

XP
CEO of Youthstoday!
..trust me, it's just angle and lighting problem..
=.=

Just random =P
With Pwen

#KFCYouthJam2013 


:::
Thank you Cho Jet for introducing this event for me. If it's not you I wouldn't know this event and wouldn't involve in the project. Even though you cant recognize me that day, TT, but still appreciate that you can recalled who I am in the end.. LoL! I will remember the awkward moment when I ask, Do You Remember Who I Am? *No face* >.< =P Again, thanks alot!

and Yvoone Tan. Thanks for guiding me all the time. Even though there're lots of obstacles, but you still manage to cope with it step by step. *clap for you* You are really a responsible leader. No matter how frustrated you are, you will still care of your team members and the youngsters (like me) =P. I'm glad to know you and work with you in the same team. =) Trust me, You did a good job. =)

:::

6th of Oct, 2013

Nothing gonna stay still and remain the same all the time
Everything has gone to memories..

Things happen for reasons
Like why we are here and you are not
Although it is hard to understand how this thing works
But the faith that you and I hold and keep is the strength for us to live on
On and on

I cried whenever I stepped into your house
Looking at you lying down there
With all white

You are my beloved uncle
I will always miss you
and love you.


I saw you smile.
Your true smile.
at us.
and in my heart.

His life story ended on 06/10/2013

around 4.00 a.m.

My beloved 2 pek

Tan Tong
;')

"I miss you, and I need you, But I hate you!"

I saw a quote on Facebook just now and it makes me to think of a person in my life. It's so true to say that to the person appear on my mind:

"I miss you,

and I need you,

But I hate you!"

I know it's silly to say so. It's contrasting. But it's how I feel at you sometimes. Maybe the missing you and needing you part are nauseating as we are too close like bro and sis. Yea, sometimes brother and sister fight also right?

Maybe I am not missing as how the quote want to express and describe,
and not so needing you like I am a weak person,
But seriously, I hate you.

 *Unemotional Face*

..blah..
...__...

我超不想

为了一些人

一些事

影响了自己

Up & Down

I understand there is always up and down in life.

How to manage the feelings with either of it is something for me to learn in life.

But whether we will be satisfied with the happiness that bring us up to the sky and able to overcome every sad moments is totally 

a different story.

..mehhh..

那年今天

屋外，摆放了一把伞。一把，失去意义的伞。

或许我觉得那把伞遮挡太阳是件很别扭的事。也觉得这举动有点婆妈。所以在储存柜里找不到把伞也是一件很平常的事。

即使许多女性朋友在外时都将伞打开遮太阳，但我总是无动于衷。总是觉得其实它的帮助不大。你看，即使撑着伞，她们也不是汗流浃背吗？至于紫外线嘛…我是在想不到那薄薄的防水朔料到底能够多防紫外线。

我不排斥那些撑伞的人，毕竟大家各有想法。但是偏偏你书包总是放着把伞，说什么以防万一，不时之需拿来用的。或许是我对人的偏差，你的道理经常不禁让我喷饭大笑。

那天大家确实为那突如其来的大雨也吓着了。毕竟上一秒天气晴朗，这一秒就落大雨了。没有办法，大家都赶时间，也有把伞，所以无伤大雅。偏偏没有伞的我却爽朗地，打算体验在落雨下的滋味，想想大风蒙面而来的感觉应该很爽快，那子弹般的雨水打落身上的感觉应该很痛快。所以双脚踏入了那沾满雨水和树叶了路上，突然觉得，Eh，其实真的没有大家想象中那么糟。因为雨水并没有眼看地那么大，风也没有想树枝摇摆地那么猛烈。

Eh，其实看看，怎觉得风大雨大，还有个莫名的人在身边撑着伞哦？哦，是你。
怪不得。

过后，你把伞给了我，又说是不时之需可以用等道理。
我还是觉得很好笑。

伞，我收了。

那年，你把它给了我，像是让它传承它本能的意义。
但
今天，它像是失去本能的伞，摆挂在屋外。

那年那天，你带着它，撑过多多少少像我一样想法的人。
今年今天，你是否回来，和它再次指引那依然守着旧想法的我？


那年的今天
和
今年的今天

是否会一样？

不想长大的女孩

请让我继续做一个

不想长大的女孩 

;')

When you put lots of effort on something and last minute you pull the handbrake and think, 

Am I doing the right thing?
or
Should I go on?

Why cant people plan before they act? 

and hold true what they'd believed?

You,

lack of determination!

Let the wind blows, my friends.

I was being pampered by friends. Every of my close friends treats me well and cares me a lot in my life.

I'm glad to have them in my lifetime. I know I'm not easy to handle. I have lots of bad characteristic and behavior yet they treat me with love. I'm blessed, I knew it. I might not showing it in front of you, but I.. I love you, I care you and I miss every moments we had together. 

I know I have bad temper, sometimes unreasonable and emotional. Thank you for compromising all my negative attitudes, also, thanks for allowing me to show my bad part in front of you. To be part of my real.

I don't make extravagant demand, I just wish that we will be what we are as last time. Because I cared you, love you and I do miss you. You are just my part of my life. I can't afford any negative changes for our valued relationship. 

Because I cared. I realize the importance of you in my life. You are no longer my just friend, you are more than friend.

To my close friends. Every single of you. The special you.  

Just
Let the wind blows.

--People treating you good is not as it should be by rights.--

专注

就为了让自己不要想太多。所以选择性地，拿起笔记做起了练习。

只要专注地做一样事，才不会花太多时间，浪费精力去想些不值得的事。

专注，也是一堂

高深的学问

那天看见朋友在面书上分享了一些句子名言。当中很多句，但我只选择性地、跳跃式地、随性地看了几句。一来我没有分享或注重这些所谓“中肯”的名言，二来也没有self-motivation用心的去阅读。有些文章很长，句子很多。通常我也只会跳过，除非我真的闷到极点或是一些领悟性的短篇。无可否认有些的确领出别一番智慧，但我还是没有太大的self-motivation。

在面书上和朋友聊天，等待他的回复时，我看见一句话。一句从几十句当中亮我眼的一句话。

我看了，“呵”了一下。

它是对的。

——在爱情的世界里，女人的沉默是最大的哭声，也是结束的前兆——

选择性地，沉默了。
之后的，就不看了。

我担心他们担心

This is my first time to drive home at this time from uni. Uni car park is dark, no much cars left. The brightest light I can see at the whole car park is only at the autopay machines. I walk there alone, with my phone on hand. I tried to call back because I'm worrying. I'm worrying that they might worry about me since I told them I'm going to leave the meeting earlier. But no one answer, so I SMS, after while, no reply also.

For those who knows me well, I cry easily at any places and any environment. I'm abit worry why my phone didnt show any missed call or message from them. I'm scare of being scolded. I might not be timid in front of people, but I am when I stand in front of them.

They are my closest and most important people in my life. They bring me up, brighten my life.

I can be crazing with my fellow. I can just leave my place and go anywhere I want without informing and just go around all the places I want to reach.

But I knew they are there. I stop myself for being irresponsible. They will be the person I hurt the most if anything goes wrong with me. I couldnt let them to worry about me, I couldnt bear to lose them.

I'm just worrying all along the highway in the dark night.
What am I worrying is that they are worrying about me.

I love them more than I love anything else in this world.
I should remember this love, and hold it forever.
Just because this love is the best assets to invest in life.

最担心的

是他们担心

这份爱

比任何资产来更值得投资

变

Class ended 30 minutes earlier today. I didn't go and take my car on the spot but stay at upper foyer together with my friends. We have the same mission and purpose to be there.

Gonna have a meeting with other committees and teachers. I dont know why we call them teacher, since everyone do so I do.

This is the first event that I involve in. I admit that my commitment is not much compare to others. But I never want to give up on this project. I knew it's hard, but I never know that it is harder than my expectancy.

Problems start approaching us from time to time while preparing. We work out on many solutions, but not everyone of it works. Thanks to every ideas contributors today so that the event can go on in the end. I'm just a nobody among them, but I'm grateful that my president would accept and listen to my solutions and try to run on it.

Everyone has their role in a team. Every members has their unique talents to make things work. Never look down people because they would bring you surprises when you are facing difficulties especially you are working in a team. As long as everyone holds the same mission, the target can be easily achievable.

Even though sometimes we might meet some fools, but the world is always like that. "There are many talented outside the world, so it must be balance with fools." -- quote from the vice president. This sentence might be harsh. But think it the other way, fools make things clearer,  they bring out the problems and invite all of us to solve it together. The problems might be hard and complicated, and sometimes you dont understand why they can just create such unreasonable and overage problems, this is the alert. It points out to everyone so that all can avoid repeating it next time.

It is no point to blame people with the happening obstacles especially you are in a team, with same mission, because it solves nothing. Focus more on the issue than emotions.

I found hard to separate my emotions with troubles sometimes. I would criticize people for not being respectful. But I did this mistake while I talk to my vice president. Maybe he thinks that it's no harm for me to talk to him casually, but if I were him, I would mind. I found myself did wrong. From him, I learnt to be more open to listen to others regardless of their position.

In a team, respectful, tolerances, understanding and self-discipline is much more important compared to focusing on self-works. Some people dont like team work so do I, but if you are willing to put your emotional aside, try to get along with them, you can do it. Provided if everyone holds the same mission to complete and achieve.

Wait for it

或许你不了解

辩，是因为要变

Having a strong blue feeling on Tuesday and Wesnesday after weeks of holidays.. Totally lost while I revise the chapters before the day. Luckily still able to pick up since it's not very hard and I've learnt in foundation.

The traffic is very smooth. Spent about 30 minutes to reach school instead of hours in the morning. Get used to be alone in tutorial class since I changed my Wednesday tutorial to Tuesday morning. I sat at a corner, looking people outside walking in and out from the building and bus. Such a busy day..

Received a msg from my president and she told me that she's going to join into my tutorial class. She sat beside me and I just smiled at her without any talk except asking about tutorial questions. I looked cool to her, I guess. I just dont feel like speaking until she told me that our result is out. At that moment, I feel my heart has fallen. The result has been release two days earlier from what admin announced. I was quite nervous, no, I was super nervous, until I cant stand the cold temperature in class and shiver after my president told me she got a quite bad result especially methodology. 

Found a stable wifi place and checked my result aside at Wisma HELP. And so, it'slightly disappointed. (memang literally disappointed). I dont want to put it in sad zone because there's nothing to sad of. I told monkey, calmly. and no one else. My president is quite worry about me but she just keep quiet beside me. Wanted to meet up with my tutor but failed, and we went to class together. 

So, it's my day.

Quite calm. Learnt not to be sad and exaggerate things. Although I always showed my sadness and helplessness face in front of those I care, but I'm okay. (memang okay). A Fact is a fact, cant really change it. Also learnt not to mix up things together, but concern about each small small matter because it might affect you. Solve every problem one by one, steady and be calm. 

But sometimes, it is hard to separate things from one another especially they happened to you simultaneously.

Control, just control. We are the one who control the mind not our brain to control us. =)

即使做不到，也要控制。努力的学习。

虽然一个人面对，但珍惜学习的机会。

嗯，感觉自己又长大了一些些。

谢谢。

我很满足。

知足。

I'm fine & okay. I deserve it. 

如果你脆弱，那么这个世界上没有一个人是坚强的了。like  =)
Thank you.

它

一年不会有多少次去KLCC。去的都很少为了逛街。几乎每次去都是因为它。

它像是从我中学生涯开始就离不开的。

话说我喜欢它，但很少看它。看着它，我需要花上比他人长的时间。

可能从小没有和它培养浓厚的兴趣。但我依旧纯纯的喜欢它。

今天，我又去看它了。它依旧当年那样。

但是看起来好像小的。是我长高了吗？懂得看得更远了吗？

或许是，或许只是我想太多。

伟大的它，把太多人带来了。吸引了更多爱它的人。

所以，我又再次踏上那片地。再次游玩摸索。

突然觉得自己长大了，勇敢了。因为我想要一个人。

我不再害怕庞大的它。开始接触它。

它有很多宝，可惜我未能将它一一带去。

今天只带了两本。

谢谢。

只想说
谢谢
=)

上面的都是废话。 LOL!
Conclusion::

Bought PM's new book 《小小的明信片》 & Chan Fong's 《大城心事》

So lucky to get the present prepared by PM - iphone 5 casing & took picture with him

BUT, I'm not using Iphone 5 eh~ =/

Luck.. =)

它-> 书展 (书)

;)

Peneng Trip With VIP

Have a great holiday with my VIP few days ago.. We went to Peneng by plane, go everywhere in Peneng by taking bus and walking. Even though we are sweating under the hot weather, we can still chilling around. I never expect I got the chance to travel with my friends at this age and it's still unbelievable for me now.. LoL!!

The food there are delicious; scenery are fantastic; bus drivers there are very polite and everything there is good, but the weather is super hot on the first day we reach. I was low of energy and sleep for hours in the guest house after we step into the room. I slept alone like a boss and others went out for their activities. I dont even know what had happened after I woke up because there's no one in the room. =/ I check my watch and realized I slept for 1 hour +. In the end I cant sleep at night.. =/

The weather turned rainy and cloudy on the second day. I love the weather because it is quite refreshing and cold especially at Bukit Bendera. I enjoyed taking bus because I can see people, building and everything happened at the street. I kept quiet, close my mouth most of the time. I dont know what to talk to with them, I feel lost sometimes maybe our channels and antennas are different? haha.. and this why I fall asleep in the bus and sleep like.. er erm.. Tbh, I was just half sleep and half awake because I opened my eyes when the bus stopped at each station and I continue sleeping when the bus goes. haha! But I really enjoy the moment in bus. Never take such a long time in bus, with those VIP somemore. =P

I love the beach, but it's kinda sunny.. I wish I can jump into the sea and play like nobody else. Kay, I might look like a kid. But this is me. =P

I will miss the moment together
<3 p="">

Yo, Peneng Lang
=)

歌

最近华文乐坛实在有太多好歌
听了几回就能哼能唱
朋友就连在面书上都share些动听的怀旧歌曲
还要replay了再replay
不得让自己沉醉在乐曲中

很多时候
我们很容易迷恋上听歌

因为每当音符配上不同的主旋律
再搭上锐利的文字时
不得不否认一些文字正适合搭配自己的心情

虽然我的心情确实容易被一些突如其来的事情影响
但我很感谢每当自己心情低落的时候
总有贵人陪伴
使我
更加珍惜彼此之间的感情

谢谢你
我爱的每个人

或许心情就需要像那掺杂的颜色笔

不同的颜色

彩出不同的感觉

有时候

掺杂了

才会有另一番体会

do you dare to dream?

not everything can be assured, especially those unforeseeable

sometimes,

future might looks iffy;

we might feel lost, doubtful

and wander

human aren't machines

everyone has emotions and feelings

whether fear, disgust, anger, happiness, sadness, contempt or surprise

either shame, guilt, pride, humiliation or embarrassing

we always experience different moment with various feelings

sometimes even mix up

we face everything with different emotions

sometimes it last long until it affects your mood

it might seems to be a dicey future in life

but people are still enjoying in spite of the challenges

the question is

do you dare to pursue your dream?

3个步骤【··深呼吸·· ··微笑·· ··无所谓··】

今天听了一个听众打电话到电台，讲述着她个人对身边的恐惧。她见过无数的医生，却依旧无法逃出自己的恐惧。

当年的她目睹自己的父亲被抢匪杀害；母亲严格无情的对待；酿成了今天缺乏自信时时紧张的自己。多年埋在心里的创伤使她不断得怀疑自己做的一切是否正确，总是担心害怕身边的人因为自己做的不好而责怪自己。

她不断地向DJ述说着以前目睹的噩梦、面对世人的恐惧、看见负面画面的害怕和犹豫。但同时她本身又能理出一番道理而且说得头头是道。却偏偏无法让自己实行下去。
她说她害怕看见他人打架、吵架、被指责等。一旦遇到这些情景的时候她会很紧张，直到无法做任何举动。虽然这些对很多人来说她如此的反应很普遍，很多人都会害怕。但她一直认为自己有病，就因为她有看医生。

DJ尝试向她解释、开导她，但她始终认为自己不可以。庆幸那位DJ持着耐心，灌输她正面能量。教导她一些让她在紧张的时候冷静下来的方法。

DJ教她凡是遇到不能解决事和紧张的时候，做3个步骤：
深呼吸 -> 微笑 -> 对自己说声“无所谓”
这对很多人来说很简单，但对于一些人，却是一件具有挑战性的事。

很多人在面对生命的路途中总有许多恐惧。面对这一切的恐惧不但需要时间，更需要自己的毅力。虽然DJ教那听众采用的方式很简单，但不是每个人都做得到，并且带来成效。我想很少人会向那听众那样那么有心。因为知道自己一旦紧张什么都会忘记，所以用笔记下来。那三个简单又易背的步骤却需要用笔和字抄下来的举动或许让其他的听众笑傻了，但，她确确实实的在为自己努力着，学习着。

多么感动得听见那位打电话去的听众在DJ问她紧张时该如何做的时候，
她回答：“现在很紧张，不记得。”
“没关系，深呼吸”，“再深呼吸”，“记得了吗？” DJ问。
“不记得”（从电台声音听见她的呼吸声）
接着自己说：“无所谓啦，再努力，继续再走”
“还有呢？有三个步骤” DJ说
“笑一笑啦！” 她说（自己也笑了）。继续：“无所谓啦，再继续啦” （再笑）

那时，我嘴角扬上，你，做到了。

后附她给大家的话：
要努力向前，不要要求别人给你的东西，别人给的都只是虚幻。自己要努力、会想、长大，用自己的能力去推动自己，并且不要太多的幻想。 ;)

你做的很好。加油！

··深呼吸··
··微笑··
··无所谓··

988大城心事
DJ- 陈锋
她-Miss Yap

失礼

久违了

打从拿了成绩，踏出校门后

心想着不会像以前穿着蓝色衣裙黑鞋  再踏进这里一步

曾经因为这里  我哭过  闹过  火过

但最终还是挨过了

也笑了  开了  明了  了了

恨的不恨了

爱的还爱着

锁的解开了

心还在热着

结果最近再次踏进这校园

看着一个又一个不熟悉的脸孔

却赏着一栋又一栋建筑的痕迹

再面对着生疏的辩题

我  又回到当年活跃的活动  -辩论

这几个星期内平均回去一次

坐的位子不同的

看的角度不一样了

手写的内容目的也不一样了

经过一场又一场的比赛

即使审着重复的辩题

每场都带来不同的效果和思考空间

从初赛到决赛

看着各只队伍以不同的方式和技巧去诠释一个点

和以前的我相比

真的  进步超多

我很敬佩小小年纪的他们可以有那么突出的思想

很喜欢听见一辩那温柔响亮的开篇立论

二辩手忙脚乱地对辩

三辩气质高阳、调气作弄试地一个个叫起来盘问

更很欣赏结辩把一盆散去的沙从拾甚至有些能塔出金字塔

对整只队伍画上完美的休止

相较起来

嗯

我失礼了

Gift from Birthday Girl from U.S.

I took plane not more than five times in my 19 years. And the planes I sat flied locally. But I have been KLIA airport more 5 times? I guess? and it is due to a same reason, same people and almost the same time. In fact, 2 of it are exactly the same date but in different year. What I can say is just coincident. =)

Whenever people ask about my sisters, most of the time, I would tell them my eldest sis is at US. Not studying, but working. In fact, training is a more suitable word. She went there quite frequently and she normally stay there at least 3 months. She had been extended to 6 months last two years, that why whenever people like friends and relatives asking about her, I will be keep repeating that she is at US. 

Finally she is back. Together with lots of luggage. I'm not strong enough to take one of her luggage, not even the small one.. I'm excited cus I knew she brought things for me. Always.. XD YES!!

This time, she brought me a Kipling bags, Converse shoes, shoe key chain (as she knew I'm collecting shoes key chains), Converse jacket and etc.. XD I couldn't wait to open her luggage one by one cus surely I will get surprise when I open it! haha!! She brought lots of magnets to stick at her magnet board in her kitchen and numbers of key chains from Hollywood. I will always take some from it by just inform her. Though she will shout at me but she will just let me take anyone of it (normally). I knew she is fierce sometimes, but she is quite generous in the way that she bought things for me from US. =P

Bags of magnets & Key Chains
with at least 5 USD each I think? =O

She normally buy Skechers but
Converse this time.. 

Converse again

Souvenir Cups from San Francisco Zoo.
It is quite expensive.. About 10 USD
But you can refill any drinks free in the Zoo!

Converse Shoes Key Chains
(about 7USD each)
*clap* *jump*
It is exactly same design as the shoes shown above! =D

Dolphin Soft Toy
XD

Didnt get to capture other souvenirs.. But mostly is shirts, nuts, kitchen stuffs, bags and etc.. =D

Thank You My Dear Sis.. XD

& Happy Birthday <3 br="" nbsp="">
=P

A Lucky Day -- Free Drinks from Sunway Starbucks

Feeling good~~ =D

Finally I have my own time to do whatever things other than school works. I feel release stared from the moment when I finished last assignment in the semester. I feel glad as I'm able to finish it before the due date, and quite satisfy with what I've done.

Coincidentally my sis's office shut down and she don't need to work for this week. End up my sis together with mum went to KL and submitted the assignment with me today. LoL! Then we heading to sis's office to take something and then Sunway Pyramid without any Pre-planning. Before we leave, we wanted to find a place to have some tea. At first sis went to coffee bean, and she's actually queuing up, but I pushed her to Starbucks because she don't have Citi Bank credit card in order to enjoy b1f1. XD 

Guess what.. We are so lucky that the staff in Starbucks approached us and offered us a free drinks. He said we were the 200th customers? I guess.. Because I was shocked and stunned when he approached us. My sis's response is much better than me and she answer "sure" to the staff. The staff started explaining the steps that we have to do in order to claim a tall free drinks. Honestly, he's quite friendly and funny. (Y)

Not only that, he told us if we went back to Sunway and he will personally give us venti instead of tall size of drinks. Somehow, he offered two free drinks for us as my sis said that there is 3 of us. haha!! Feel so glad to get the chance to claim free drinks there~ what a lucky day man!

#SunwayStarbucks Staff Rocks!! 

Thumbs up! =D

I am squeezing by loads of works these weeks. I was almost committed to suffer from the nervous tension, yet luckily there is something always pull me up whenever I am exhausted and restless. Meanwhile, I am glad I'm still able to do it quite smoothly and stick with my schedule constantly, though sometimes I might be a bit lazy and procrastinate.

Few weeks time ago, I told the boss that I can make it but, two days before the day, when Jia called me and asked whether I'm going to the party or not, I cannot assure her of the probability of going. I felt so bad. Teh Ooi even said I'm "soi lui" if I didnt go. *sigh* WHY??

In the end, I went, and I leave my assignments aside. Because tutor brought a good news for us by telling us that one of the assignment's due date has been postponed. I was like, seeing a bring angel light in front of the iPad when I read the announcement. See, as long as you work hard, there will be rewards for you in the end. LoL!! But of course, this is not really common, and dont expect it will happen again. =/ *should be grateful now*.

I felt.. dont know what to do except eat, so did Jia and Teh Ooi, can see through their faces. LoL! We sat like a boss because we were near to the gate. People passed back frequently, yet no one could stare at us. Lame! We saw people going around here and there, everyone has their job to do. So three of us end up doing things that we enjoyed - eat, talk and take picture. I knew they couldn't tahan me because I ate a lot that night. *ps, I'm hungry kay* Thanks also for getting food for me, without shyness. XD

Some how, I felt lost and hollow in the crowd. Some of the Kakix were absent, and we dont even know the current life of each other. We are getting lesser attach and getting further from each others. I know we are somehow tying together, but seems like we are lacking of chances to meet up and enjoy the joys together like last time. The memories are fresh, yet so far. =(

But at least, I know we are tying together. Caring each others. Those memories can just keep in minds. The unforgettable memories, vividly. So I do enjoy the party. =D Having fun with a small group, and get to meet up with prefects seniors. Got siao siao one, crazy one, pretty one, serious one and pattern one. LoL!! Bear with the poor English that I've wrote. But honestly, they are really gorgeous and amazing. =)

An event is so powerful that it can make anyone from everywhere back to the origin, joining together again. and there, everyone can recall the past memories, and share the happiness together. After a couple of years.

Ps:
Kang Zi, your pimples are not so obvious here.. LoL!!

Here to wish Hyoung Happy Birthday. Enjoy your 21st years old. =)

Week 5

Paper notes in class

It comes to the fifth week for this semester.  The lecture classes and tutorials classes are going to end by two more weeks.  It also implies that the semester is going to end soon.  I like short semester.  Everything goes very fast, ends very quick.  Although the schedule is very pack, as usual, but I enjoy it.

It's a new challenge for me to done a assignment within a short period.  It is a very big challenge for having pop quizzes in every classes for methodology, and unpredictable handphone quizzes.  The handphone quizzes will be given when someone's phone rings during the class.  It will be a tough quiz for as the questions given are those materials that we've not learnt.  I tend to have heart attack whenever I attend the class, and I'm scare once she steps in the class.  Everything just happens randomly, unpredictably.  But the lecture class is fun, though many people don't find the fun part, at least I'm happy with it.  Despite of lecturer is very strict, talks like rocket and particular on small things like the size of quiz paper, the way we write and the format, yet, I found some laughing points from her speech.

I should have 1 month holiday after few weeks from now.  But I decided to take the other subject from other department, and the department is a long semester.  Hence, I have to scarify the holiday and attend the classes which will hold during my holiday.  Shouldn't use the word "scarify" though, as I'm willing to do so.  Many people found hard to understand why I do so, squeeze everything together, but it is fine for me.

I understand that Nothing can be so perfect.   

June Start

I'm scared of the passing speed of time.  Seems like I'm trying to escape from coming challenges.  Maybe I'm not ready yet, or I'm worrying too much.  

I'm afraid of being out of control of my life.  I count the probability before making decision, predict the outcome and test for the hypothesis.  Yet, for some matters, there have no much time for me to do so.  The process is just taking too long.  And sometimes, not everything can be predicted, controllable and being tested. 

I told myself to chill on sometimes, yet the truth tells me that I shouldn't.  Not every way that works on others suit me.  Everyone has their way to live their life.  We should listen others' opinions and suggestions, but we must be able to view ourselves as we are, and not change and follow, blindly.

Growth

From time to time, we always look back our past.  Sometimes, we spend hours to flashback those memories and exhilarating experiences in the past.  The feelings might be complicated, warm or touching.  Most of the time we will ask ourselves why do we do so in the past?  Why do we so particular on that small matter?  Why do we make this poor decision that time?  and so.  The folks always remind us to make a decision that we will not regret in the future.  But how many of the decisions that we've made are regretful?

I guess this might be one of our growing process in our life.  Sometimes, we need to feel the pain before we stand strongly.  Provided we acted on the premise that we really understand and realize the causes of pain.

The crisis in life is that we knew the causes and the consequences, yet we refuse to change.  Sometimes, listen is not enough, we have to put words into actions.

Step out and grow.  Sometimes it might be hard and challenging, but you have to expand your comfort zone before you can grow.  Go beyond the fear.  Get your life different.  and that's your life.

五月

五月才刚开始，就已经有很多事情发生。首先是1. 大选，接着是2. 大选成绩，然后到3.团结一致心向干净的选举和民主制度，最后到4.假期结束。

假期里翻看脸书都是各朋友对政治的言论看法，与政治人物对大众说的民声。眼看国家走下滑，真的，很多人都表示难过。庆幸也有一大群很努力的人正为更好的明天奋斗。感谢忠心为国的勇士们。我相信真正用心、有努力付出的必有成果。只要你做的是对的，不会有人责怪你；即使有，至少你对得起良心。凭心做人，总好过因为活而做人。

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过多几天，新的学期就快开始了。这几天总为了选科目的事情而烦恼。担心这个又顾虑那个。总觉得寸步难移。明明决定了，但迟来一个急转弯。 既要排时间表，又要顾及拿个科目是否有撞到时间。其实这些都问题不大。但重点是有些部门的科目时间表出了，有些却还没出。其实撞到了，就牺牲其中一科，很简单。但担心的是add/drop subjects时间以过了。

天啊~ 但愿一切顺利，引刃而解。
为更好的明天加油。

晚安，世人。

有时候，太多选择，其实，很难抉择。