Up & Down

I understand there is always up and down in life.

How to manage the feelings with either of it is something for me to learn in life.

But whether we will be satisfied with the happiness that bring us up to the sky and able to overcome every sad moments is totally 

a different story.

..mehhh..

那年今天

屋外，摆放了一把伞。一把，失去意义的伞。

或许我觉得那把伞遮挡太阳是件很别扭的事。也觉得这举动有点婆妈。所以在储存柜里找不到把伞也是一件很平常的事。

即使许多女性朋友在外时都将伞打开遮太阳，但我总是无动于衷。总是觉得其实它的帮助不大。你看，即使撑着伞，她们也不是汗流浃背吗？至于紫外线嘛…我是在想不到那薄薄的防水朔料到底能够多防紫外线。

我不排斥那些撑伞的人，毕竟大家各有想法。但是偏偏你书包总是放着把伞，说什么以防万一，不时之需拿来用的。或许是我对人的偏差，你的道理经常不禁让我喷饭大笑。

那天大家确实为那突如其来的大雨也吓着了。毕竟上一秒天气晴朗，这一秒就落大雨了。没有办法，大家都赶时间，也有把伞，所以无伤大雅。偏偏没有伞的我却爽朗地，打算体验在落雨下的滋味，想想大风蒙面而来的感觉应该很爽快，那子弹般的雨水打落身上的感觉应该很痛快。所以双脚踏入了那沾满雨水和树叶了路上，突然觉得，Eh，其实真的没有大家想象中那么糟。因为雨水并没有眼看地那么大，风也没有想树枝摇摆地那么猛烈。

Eh，其实看看，怎觉得风大雨大，还有个莫名的人在身边撑着伞哦？哦，是你。
怪不得。

过后，你把伞给了我，又说是不时之需可以用等道理。
我还是觉得很好笑。

伞，我收了。

那年，你把它给了我，像是让它传承它本能的意义。
但
今天，它像是失去本能的伞，摆挂在屋外。

那年那天，你带着它，撑过多多少少像我一样想法的人。
今年今天，你是否回来，和它再次指引那依然守着旧想法的我？


那年的今天
和
今年的今天

是否会一样？

不想长大的女孩

请让我继续做一个

不想长大的女孩 

;')

When you put lots of effort on something and last minute you pull the handbrake and think, 

Am I doing the right thing?
or
Should I go on?

Why cant people plan before they act? 

and hold true what they'd believed?

You,

lack of determination!

Let the wind blows, my friends.

I was being pampered by friends. Every of my close friends treats me well and cares me a lot in my life.

I'm glad to have them in my lifetime. I know I'm not easy to handle. I have lots of bad characteristic and behavior yet they treat me with love. I'm blessed, I knew it. I might not showing it in front of you, but I.. I love you, I care you and I miss every moments we had together. 

I know I have bad temper, sometimes unreasonable and emotional. Thank you for compromising all my negative attitudes, also, thanks for allowing me to show my bad part in front of you. To be part of my real.

I don't make extravagant demand, I just wish that we will be what we are as last time. Because I cared you, love you and I do miss you. You are just my part of my life. I can't afford any negative changes for our valued relationship. 

Because I cared. I realize the importance of you in my life. You are no longer my just friend, you are more than friend.

To my close friends. Every single of you. The special you.  

Just
Let the wind blows.

--People treating you good is not as it should be by rights.--

专注

就为了让自己不要想太多。所以选择性地，拿起笔记做起了练习。

只要专注地做一样事，才不会花太多时间，浪费精力去想些不值得的事。

专注，也是一堂

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