A random post about the girl and me

I heart you =)

It is consider late now, and yet Im still here. Initially im study for the physic exam. But i change my mind to face to the computer screen rather than physic book. I am having insomnia these two days. Im not stressing up myself. But just hard to fall on sleep at the night.

Had a short talk with a dear friend. She is sweet. We know each other for 4 years, same class for 2 years. We have a close friendship with each other. I have a long period didnt talk with her, but once we meet, we can talk everything without limit. I can called this is a really true friendship. Im really grateful. Thanks god.

We are basically talking about the past and the thought in our mind. The topic of the discussion is still around 2 years ago. Truly, i have a vivid memories with her. Unforgettable. The day when i accidentally make her cry ; the day where we go for movie ; the day and the days. Although some part of it might be unhappy, but it is memorable for me.

We dont meet each other and chat all the time. We dont go out every holidays. She dont actually know what is happening around me and so happened to me. I dont really know where is her house located. But, sometimes, when i am having insomnia, my brain will suddenly pop out the memory between us. And yet, i really appreciated. From the bottom of the heart, i do care you. Thanks. (of course same to others friends, but this post is mainly talking about a friendship, between the girl and me)

那是最初的美，最真诚的美，打从心里的美。
我要综合这些美，然后储存起来。

分析决定

不晓得是不是它影响了我。每次想的时候会想特别多。或许更应该用“分析”这个词比较恰当。可是往往就是“分析”得不够仔细、透彻。往往会忽略的一些小细节。在不然就是在分析的过程当中太长，眼前的事物等不及我脑袋的分析，就发生了。事情又是发生得太突然，应变能力不够强往往都是一个致命伤。

就好像你做的东西我不喜欢，自己就很自然的反映出自己不满甚至愤怒。例如摆臭脸、不说话。这是一个人的会给反应。反应了这个动作，再仔细地想一想，自己不应该这样。你是关心我，我知道。可是，是不是长辈就有特惠？为什么长辈不能站在那小的立场想吗?那为什么小的又不能站在长辈的角度想想?

等下,明明是我生气，为什么还要我去替你想你的出发点？但是，当一个人的出发点是为自己好的，为什么自己还是那么孩子气地硬要摆臭脸？然后自己就会想出很多很多理由来支持自己的立场是对的。例如：每次都是我让你，听你的，我要一次自己做决定都不可以。/ 你管我，我那么大个人会自己照顾自己。/ ……

反之，你怎能叫一个母亲忍心不理自己的儿女？我只能说“养女100岁，常忧99”。


就是这样，每次这样的事情，左右脑都会打架。是好事还是坏事？算了，不想了。这是你吗？
这是我。
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所以，连选择生气与否都那么多思绪。人说做人很难，不会就因为人生中有太多不解的决定要做吗？应该不会吧？人怕做决定，因为怕做了错的决定。决定了不气，如果是错的，那就不要再耿耿于怀；决定了生气，如果是错的，那就圆和场面吧。

The Malaysia Day

I face in front of computer for more than 1 hour. I think to blog something, but i have nothing to write. A week is gone again. 2 more weeks to go. Im having 4 days holidays. The Malaysia Day, weekends and a day of holiday which i set by myself.

Prime Minister has declared to repeal the act. The one which allows detention without trial. The one which my debate team ''boo''. We kept taking the disadvantages and effect at the competition and we get the key to enter the next round and final at the end. It is called ISA. In honesty, it is not suitable to stand this act in our country, and in a modern century. However, it doesn't seem like a good news for citizen. Because there is going to have 2 new laws/ acts to replace ISA. Any different huh? o.O?

I put this into a topic here because i dont have any topic to blog now. But anyway, it shouldnt be a topic here. Im really bored today. Sibling is not at home. House is silent, room is quiet. One is at China and another is at Time Square. Im bored! I cant put myself on the books around. But trial still have 2 more weeks to go. Cant oppose my laziness. Truly.

Anyway, Im going to watch movie later with my mum. Yes, i have a long period didnt step into cinema. At the night. This is a unexpected decision. On the Malaysia Day, we are going to watch Namewee's Nasi Lemak 2.0. LoLx. Im quite excited on this movie. End the day with Nasi Lemak. =)

Nasi Lemak 2.0
Namewee & Karen Kong

One week past

One week has past, 3 more weeks to go; 4 subjects has done, 8 subjects to go ( included PJK and PSK). =) so far it doesnt look like a hardship, but there are more to be challenge. Have to take it seriously. Put yourself on it, but not scare or hate it. You will do better. Work hard and relax. Dont stress yourself and avoid yourself depress. =) I believe.