Merry Christmas

25th of December.

Come to the end of the month. 6 days more to 2012. A dragon year.

Would it be a better year? or more challenging?

It is unpredictable. Everything is Unpredictable. As long as we are live happily and meaningful.

It is time to do some review of myself in 2011 and make some new target for next year. It is time to do some preparation. Yea.. Hwaiting!!

** It's Merry Christmas Now! **
Nice X'mas song

A pleasant surprise day is -** Merry Christmas **

Ho-Ho-Ho

countdown

Leave my secondary school for more than 1 month. Finished my last secondary exam (SPM) more than 2 weeks already. Before these, im very excited to finish the secondary school life and exams. Yea, i did it. But now, im Hae-ing at home. and this is the first week i Hae at home.

I filled my time with activities last week. and i learned lots & enjoy it. Workshop at fm 988, shopping, concert, kakix and more. Now, i've nothing to fill into my schedule. Living emptily. I'm not accustomed to be so free everyday. No more monday blue, no need to iron uniform, no more assembly, not reading Rukun Negara on the stage, not rushing for homework and not preparing for exam. The life without target and achievement. I am empty...

Mostly wasted my time on internet these few days. It provides myself a large space to think out of the box and flash back my memory. Many ideas had pop out in my mind. But i couldn't express out. Maybe if i've got inspiration ...

I read through others's blog. Especially those people i know, but he/she dont know me. They make me envy with what they have. Especially their achievement. and slowly, look at their wording with pleasure and respect --- I admire them.

I'm those who always look at what others have & how good of the others' behavior , how many hard work the others paid behind etc. After that, i will just admire them. Feel that they are much better than me. Have a enjoyable life. and i will start thinking, how could i be in the future? Am i going to be like them? or? many question marks floating there.

It is December now. The last month of 2011. Just a blink of eyes. December is always a romantic months for me. Everyone is planning how to celebrate Christmas and countdown. I like December. I like Christmas. Although there is no snow here in Malaysia. But i always imagine that there is. and i believe of the story of santa. There is full of Christmas decoration everywhere now.. I like it. Even the smurf's game and snoopy's game are snow-ing. Although i'd never celebrate it, but i love Christmas.

Many office are having presents exchange. Even sis's office. Yerr... I also want to join! =( I saw friends received a notebook and cute Iphone casing! I believe it is unlimited!! =( Yea, im countdown-ing. 4 more days. Ho-Ho-Ho! Hmm.. Guess.. Who would like to be a Santa and send the gift for me?! XD

Merry Christmas~`` =)

Love 疯音乐。

Time is precious, and it flies really fast. One week past again. The day of last week, i was having a workshop at Tropicana Office Tower. Having lots of fun there. I miss the moment. But i could never go back..

Went to Midvalley yesterday. With friends. We didnt catch up almost 1 year time. and once we met, we talked non stop. Talk everything, without limit. We chit-chat at Secret Recipe for few hours while waiting the time past. LoL.

We purposely want to go 《十分红》.yea, very red. XD I went to the concert last year. Since i got tickets again this year, i asked others to join it. ps, thanks fm 988 for the tickets. But i only gave out 3 out of 10 tickets although there are 10 people attending. We are actually wasting 11 tickets! Because Kangzi won another 4 tickets with 'Feel Good Zone' on the spot. Thanks NTV7 and 炎亚纶. LoL.　

We wasted the tickets because we ran into the 'Feel Good Zone' without showing the tickets. We are brave. LoL. We stood at a good + nice place. We can see the singer clearly without any people blocking from the start to the end of the concert. and the screen just in front of us. =)

I love 李佳薇 and 丁当 the most. Especially when they cross-over! 李佳薇 got her strength and she looks nice other than pretty and sweet. Her voice is very powerful. If Im not there to listen she sang 煎熬 & 分隔线 , i could never imaging how good is her singing skill! Thumb UP for her! 

Another, 丁当! She came for the concert last year, but i miss her part because i went back earlier. =( Anyway,  Im lucky this year. I was there to enjoy her performs. Had been toxic-ed by her voice. >.<'' 

Every singer sang very well the push up the atmosphere to maximum!  =)

我爱疯音乐！

我的身边有两个

忘了星期几的晚上，我和一个人谈到很夜。我不知道对方在谈话中是否有哭泣，还是很生气。只是觉得，嗯…就离我那么近，那么靠近的距离和关系，我竟然遇到两个，两个相识个性的人。

一种米养数百人，我的身边有很多不同的人。

一开始我就感觉到对方是个非常在乎两个人或以上之间的感情。认识了对方这段期间，很明显地感觉到，其实，eh,你很重义气，重感情，重友谊，重责任，重相处，重重逢，重，在一起。我本身可大大地承认我不是。（理由不必说多，因为不是重点。）所以一开始就不站在对方的立场。     我们，是对立的。

对，两个不同观点的人在一起总是会产生冲突，但，这一次我很大胆的豁出去对对方说自己的观点。我也不晓得自己哪来的勇气。心里只是不断希望，对方不要生气。

一直到对方丢了一句，“或许你看得开，但是我不是，我不能……”。
这句话，让我反思，清醒了。
‘所以，看到了吗？因为执著，因为固执…’ 我说。

然后我再深思，固执、执著…我愣了。

对，因为 [固执] ， [执著] 。每个人都有自己 [固执] 和 [执著] 的时候。包括我在内。只是，我和你的 [执著] 不一致。

在接下来的谈话中，我转话，对对方说，
“他们会知道你的用心的。不要因为失败而失望再放弃。因为这个世界会因为有你这样重义气，重感情，重友谊，重责任，重相处，重重逢，重，在一起的人而变得更美丽。” =)
之后也开始给于鼓励和支持的话。

每一个人的坚持和固执，都需要有人去支持才可以走得更远更久。对方的这一份坚持和固执，是需要被认同、被认可的。只要出发点是好的，就需要有被肯定的时候。

我想说，你的坚持和固执，不但有我的认同和肯定。而且我相信，你的坚持和执著会有开花的一天。前提是，只要你懂得， 收 放 自 如 。

PS:可能在谈话中说了很多不该说和无理取闹的话语。请，原谅。

完成SPM大概有五天了，但感觉它还是很靠近。因为在这五天里我过得总算充实，非常充实。我很开心。一切竟在不言中。
现在，才是我真正的放假。

张学友连续4天的世纪演唱会没有去到。但是有去的姐姐和她男朋友都说很赞。张学友不是我的年代，但也未能参与他的半世纪。有点可惜。虽然没有很迷他，但是他的歌，都是K歌。像是祝福、吻别等等。

书桌上的一切还没有完成整理。零碎的、还有不懂要留还是丢的物品…散乱在四处。收拾了，还是觉得留的东西太多。有些没有必要的留的，考虑送人。可是又很不舍得。明天又得整理一番才行。

这几天很累，但我很快乐，我很愉快。一躺在床上就睡着，很喜欢这种感觉。就算不是，都是满满的幻想和开心的回忆。大家都很厉害。不管是theory上，还是practical…是时候，发现自己的魅力。 o.O 感谢有你。感谢机会。感谢。我会记住。

曾经我想的很多，其实到现在还是没有少过。有时想东，有时想西；摸不着头脑就睡觉的一概不是我的作风。我曾经因为想很多，所以烦到很多身边的朋友。直到岁数逐渐地增长、头脑逐渐地健全，有了新的了解。虽然到现在还是会想很多，但是诉说出来的机率减低了。我开始学会，不跟别人吐心理想的。不是孤僻，只是，我想，我会、我可以——自己解决

我想我知道我想要些什么，只是有时候迟迟不敢踏出那一步。因为我怕走错路。其实有时候我需要关心需要安慰。或许倾诉的对象随着自己不断把事情往心里吞的一样，越来越少。可能我知道其实有些还是站在那里，一直欢迎着我的人。可是，就是可是…

是身边的人越来越少，还是其实自己越来越远离轨道？我很执著，我很固执。我希望我这样的一个动作，你就可以知道其实我做什么。可是这个‘你’其实有点难找。有时沉默不是金，就真的需要说出口，才会有人知道你要的，你想的是什么。就算需要他人的帮助，都应该先伸出手，让人扶你一把。

可惜我很执著，也很固执。我不喜欢，就是不喜欢。

可是我很少说出口，也觉得没有必要说出口。

或许可惜，我是水瓶座……