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我们的心连着就好

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3 electives, 1 core and thesis 2

Wow..

Eating.. Motivation.. And neuroscience..

Wow x2..

Sounds like a cool combination. 

challenging?

I feel so so so tired these days.. Sleep deprive, even though I slept early.. 

Too much dreams and thought intrusions.

What a blue day..

..HELP..

One day it just gets better, there's no explanation or reason why. You just wake up, and you're not angry anymore. 

One day it just gets better. There's no explanation or reason why. You just wake up, and you're not feeling sad anymore.

One day it just gets better. There's no explanation or reason why. You just wake up, and you're not dejected anymore. 

One day it just gets better. There's no explanation or reason why. You just wake up, realise that you need to move on, and you start accepting and let the uncertainty go with the flow, despite of the worries and fear, you have gained the courage to stand, and choose your future journey independently. 

Sometimes all you have to do is forget what you feel, and remember what you deserve. 

Sometimes all you have to do it forget what you feel, and remember what you deserve. 

Sometimes all you have to do is forget what you feel, and remember what you deserve. 

Feelings makes us up and down. To certain extend, it doesn't matter. You just need to remember, what do you deserve in the reality. It helps to active your rationality, instead of letting you to be trapped in the world of emotion. Which can be dangerous. 

We suffer more often in imagination than in reality. 

We suffer more often in imagination than in reality. 

We suffer more often in imagination than in reality. 

Imagination may brings us travel all over the places. But imagination isn't true and real. Either it is happiness, or sadness. They're unreal. It could be ok if the imaginations bring positive and good pictures of life. But people often trapped in the imagination of the uncertain future outcomes, and that's the cause of sufferings. 

I don't need anybody in my life who doesn't want to be there. 

I don't need anybody in my life who doesn't want to be there.

I don't need anybody in my life who doesn't want to be there.

"The door is there, you can leave and I wouldn't get offended. In fact, you're  doing in my favour, and you're doing good for your sake." —— words learnt from one of the lecturer. 

Healing 

朋友 与 不凡

很老套的说::

已经好久没有好好和亲爱的朋友们聊天谈心交流了… 我有两个从小就认识的朋友，有他们在身边，总是让我觉得，“那已经足够”。

我们不想其他朋友群一样，我们不能想他们一样不时聚在一块儿，不时见面聊聊天，也很少会对彼此聊心事，但我们偶尔还会彼此问候。对我来说，那是一种暖心。

或许是长大的关系，又或许是自己性格的关系… 我不常对朋友讲述自己的生活苦事。我也不想其他人，可以和很多朋友圈里混在一起疯狂。我是那个，静静的，总是展现着一副“闲人免进”的样子…

朋友忽然感叹说，我们从来没有好好谈心，特别在我身上，找不到对的频率和我聊一些感情事，说我总是太理智。（我想他应该觉得我没人性。 ）

朋友开始和我分享一点他的顾虑和想法，总觉得自己在无病呻吟。明明过的好好的，却深思熟虑太多后，觉得忧愁。我倒觉得这不是坏事，能够在过得安稳的时候为前方的未知铺路是种准备。

谈话中我不时分享了一些这些日子以来累积下来的体会和发现。我和朋友分享我所领悟的。而朋友却问我，怎么学了那么多。

对我而言，我觉得每个人都在不同的时间会经历着不同的阶段。需求不一样，没能比较。我懂的事情或许你不懂，但你懂的知识我也可能不会。人有高矮，手有长短；各有千秋。我不能变成你，成为你，因为我会失去自我生存的本能。但是倘若我欣赏你，我可以向你学习；要是我和你不合，我们可以保持距离。

而我口出随言，说到：

你做的事不是每个人都会认同，但不是你每做的事都需要别人的认同你才能做⋯ 

他们为这段话分别重复念一了次。

哦，我不知道如此。做了太多得到他人认可的事情，而埋没了自己需要做的事情。就像跟风一样，随风而来，随浪而去⋯ 却没有想过逆风而行的疯狂，没有想过跨越海浪的汹涌⋯ 

此刻，应该知晓了。

最近越来越珍惜有关朋友这件事。自从positive friendship 以后，自从知道它的珍贵以后⋯ 但有时，真的来不及经验。

想“不凡”了⋯ 

There's a place, where it gives you the safest feelings after you run thousand or million miles away, and when you come back, it gives you the best feelings, which I termed it as home. A home where it might not the typical biological family, but the sense of belonging, from any closes.

-不凡- ，是一个艾滋病患⋯ 遭受他人对艾滋的歧视。大众依旧无法逃脱心里的恐惧跨越对艾滋病患的接纳。但是有着关怀和爱的家人，那一种归宿感，或许就已经足够。

了解

刚刚和友人说了一个面目可憎的故事。没有很熟，但有点投契。

有时候可以很开放的分享心情。只要frequency 和 tone 调对，其实，都可以好好沟通。

或许有人觉得我总是冷漠冰冰，缺乏人情… 但有时候，我可以和你聊得很痛快，分享得很愉快。

我不敢说些“你这样看我，是因为你不了解我”这样的话。我凭什么要你了解我… 更何况变化这回事，像是天气一样，无法预计。

如果我因为让你可以好好了解我，而停步让你慢慢了解我，是不是我太看不起你追不上我的脚步，是不是我在耽误了我的步伐？如果我因为随着经历快速改变成一个更好的自己不留步，是不是我太过于自私难理解，是不是对你而言是一种善变？

认识一个人很容易；懂一个人不难；了解一个人，既难，又冒险。冒险在于过于投入了解他人，忘去自我；冒险在于过于想了解一个人，慢慢地塑造他人称为自己想要的样子

虽然了解不是不可行。只是当它发生在自我要求和强迫下一定要达到的时候，它的风险会随之而提高。

##了解他人可以建立与一起同步同行，也基于信任和耐力之下。##

一直在担心自己在三个星期的semester break过得太悠闲，使自己变得懒散，把该做的事都搁置了一旁不动。

所谓该做的事情就如我应该关心的论文课业和一些to-do-list。确实，考完最后一张试卷后，我都把这些事情搁置，拥入假日的怀抱。那种假日的悠闲和享受总让我不亦乐乎。好不容易可以放缓步伐和紧凑的节奏。我觉得自己好久都没有体会这种悠闲。

但这种愉快不时让我感觉到一阵阵担忧… 而这种担忧渐渐地愈来愈强烈，且愈来愈持久… 原因是我担心着那些该做，却被我搁置一旁迟迟还未动工的事情… 那些该做却未完成的事情总让我心不在焉，不能完全享受悠闲的时候。

“我需要投入在我该做的事情里。”—— 再次告诉自己

所以我把自己投入在自己需要做的事情上。开始时很傲慢，没有精力，感觉爱睡，想着出游… 可当我渐渐投入的时候，我却担心自己会做得忘了时间，担心明天是否会对早已约好的朋友放飞句，会不会缺席已答应的聚会… 

我不应该害怕和担忧。我忘了当时你我都认同，我是一个很固执的人，只要我肯做，想做，我可以把那份固执投入在那所谓我要做，我想做的事情身上，一直做下去！

以为站在“该做的事”和“想做的事”之间，可以平衡取舍。其实，在这两“事”之间，有固执，就够了。至于平不平衡，它会自己调和。

还是爱自己。因为懂自己。

听歌

已经很久没有把时间花在听歌身上了… 收在mp3里面的歌都是很久以前的歌… 但听回去还是很有画面感… 

啊，什么时候，这样轻松听歌的夜晚对我来说，渐渐地已经变得一种奢侈… 

假期，要好好把它拥入怀中。

Canada

Like seriously.

Yes, No? 

No. 

Seems like too early to make the decision. 

I don't know. 

::

You gonna make your own effort on living your life fully, because I have the faith on you that you can do it. It is the matter of whether you want, or don't want to study. You can kick it with flying colours, or perhaps, any color you like. 

Anyhow, I trust you, and it's your responsibility of your choice. 

Ciao

There're still people care of you, when you tell people you want to leave.. LoL! 

So good yea? =)

Why worry so much? o.O

If I'm going to leave, what would you tell me?


Actually, she would like to stay..

Opss!!

No • Way

*wink*

早

##我希望以后早上起来，有杯热饮 + 西式早餐来开启美好的早晨。##

一个人的午后，搭上温热的咖啡。凝视着窗外的景色。慢慢的品尝那浓厚的咖啡，享受那悠凉的微风缓缓地飘逸在大自然生态里，让自己更能贴近自己宁静的心灵… …

这种生活，对繁忙的都市人群而言，确实是一种奢侈。

这种画面太优美。是在做戏里头才能看见的。要不，就是住在洋房，从不为金钱和事业忙碌奔波的人才能体会到的。

不是吗？

Knowing someone who watches you growing slowly, from a poor person to be a better and capable person is meaningful and touching. 

For me, it's like a tender farewell message. There're too much to say and too much to be done, but parting knocks into our life before we complete those matters that we wish to do it together. We shall pause on that, but not stop. The tearful parting separate us from here, but one day, we will meet and we can continue the work undone here. 

I'll keep my prayer on you as well. My dear.