靠近

月光笼罩的夜晚总会让许多的灵感莫名地涌出心头。
凌晨的3点钟，我坐在书桌前，面对着无数的数字，无情的光阴……
我…真的，感受到那股压力。有如千金重的无形物往心中推压。有时候，真的，会喘不过气。
其实我在想，如果那一天，成绩到手的那一天，要是我无法接受到手上那张纸的成绩，我会怎样？其实我很怕，也很担心。如果，我真的接受不了… …
还没有踏上船上，却担心着到达的目的地。实在很不应该…
它一天一天地靠近，我一天一天地害怕。只能说，是我信心不足，因为我没有准备好。心惊胆跳地看着眼前的慢慢流失，却万二分地不想结束今天的12点。
失眠的夜，寒冷的风，我的心，凉了，颤抖着。

如果

如果当初我们没有认识；

是不是

藏在心中已久的泪痕都会抹去？

如果当初没有那场误会；

是不是

我们的友谊能够长久一些些？

如果当初我抓紧机会；

是不是

就能得到我想要的？

如果我肯放下；

是不是

一切都能得到解脱？

如果我肯妥协；

是不是

就能风平浪静？

如果我肯道歉；

是不是

就能够没关系？

如果我还坚持；

是否

能够有你的支持？

“如果”，只是给自己的一个‘借口’

因为，根本没有如果。

人类，又怎能预测未来？

有时侯

有时我们

很难100%完美 ； 更何况，没有完美的我们

有时我们

也很难强求事事顺利凡是得心易手 ； 这，称不得上是人生

有时你们

感觉厌倦、感觉愤怒、各种情绪的变化 ；这是人类都拥有的七情

有时你们

累了垮了病了 ； 那就歇了停了睡了

有时他们

胡闹撒娇捣蛋调皮； 是孩子的本性

有时他们

分分离离来来往往兜兜转转； 却都相遇在原点

不管何时
我们、你们、他们
其实，微笑就好

I found that, sometime, it is a bit bored and lonely in the condition of no partner. 

The whole afternoon, i walked alone in KLCC. I had walked around the whole complex. I keep walking and walking. Looking around  at shirts, Kinokuniya, restaurant etc. Until my legs are sore, and i rest. 

I bought subway, and take a sit near the window. I sat gazing out of the window. It is blue and green. The people coming and going. Most of them talking picture. yet, im eating subway at the food court. LoL.

This is the first time, i walked alone in a complex for 3-4 hours. Break my own record. Yea, then i take train to KL sentral and back to Serdang. =)

The day in the tallest tower, which were each constructed with 110 floors. My legs are really sore. @.@

[I had wrote something about friend as previous post. This time i gonna to post something about someone else. Not purposely want to write it. But it so happened when i done this post.] ------- [...] added after i done the post.

Trial had over. Form 3 students are going to sit for their PMR. It recalls some picture in my mind. Obviously is something about when i was facing PMR two years ago. What was in my mind and how was the feeling? Is it gonna to be same on 14 Nov 2011? I feel worry and afraid when i heard the date. It is about 1 more month left from now. Oh No~``

Seem like everyone is well prepare with their studies and managing their time equally. But how about myself? Hmm.. I still have lots to go. Yea, it is true. and yet i know it is really important for future. So, it is not the time for playing and joking anymore. Be serious and steady! Do not get influence by other things. And the important thing is, be confident with ownself. Believe that i can do it all time.

I feel that always the lucky one. I had been asking for not giving too much pressure on myself all the time especially exam time. They are my seniors. I feel that im the one who always been well treated by those seniors. Especially the badge which 2 years older than me. Im closer than them although there is a age distance.

I was asking for my recent time few days ago by a senior again. She was migrate to Aus. and.. I do miss her sometime. ( In addition of she just gave a comment in the chat box, this make me to have some motion to write about her. LoL)She is the one whom i always admire when i was form 1. I admire her because of she stands at the stage, the emcee for every assembly. I feel that it is proud to stand at the stage. LoL. I felt shock and continued by warming when i saw her post at my wall. It cannot be describe. But, just happy and warm. Thanks.

Not only her. There is few more seniors who always give support and encouragement when i needed. Although it is not as many as a swarm of bees. But the few had influenced me much in my life. I appreciated very much.

No matter how much good character  in a story; his/ her action will be appreciated and the good will be pay back at the end. Even though there is only a bad character in the story, he/she will get back what he/she had done.

Good character dont need to be much in my life, you and you and you, had colored my life with brightness and lead me to the correct way.
My life no longer only filled with tone, but also lyric. =)