I drew a picture

with a girl face covered by a mask

who is that?
"me"

what is she doing?
"crying"

why is she wearing mask?

"..."

Yes, I'm so sick now.

Sorry for making you worry about me

I'm really so sorry

But I'll always remember what I've promised you 

I'll never think of hurting myself now and in the future.

回到原点-有你真好

我知道我还是需要回去那个陌生却熟悉的地方

因为那里，我可以聆听的

不只是自己的故事

还可以感受

你对我的爱戴与温暖

有你我觉得比较定心

有你我觉得比较安心

有你我觉得很快乐、自由

无拘、无束

我想说

有你

真好

Mail，电邮

其实每次发电邮给任何人我都会莫名的害怕，担心，和紧张…

因为每次需要用电邮来沟通和传达信息的人都是一些比较难在普通社交网站和社交流行apps里不太能够接触的人…

基本上来说就是一些比较“有份量”，“有距离”，“有权威”的人或单位…

因为只有这些人才会要我使用邮件这种比较笼统，对我来说又是一种很“正式”的沟通方式来沟通…

所以我总是特别害怕发邮件，特别是给那些“重要人物”。因为要是一下不小心打错字导致意思不一样还是文法不对又或则习惯用了比较非正式的语言或缩写时，就会很尴尬…担心对方看不明白那些缩写，觉得自己不懂得礼仪敬老尊贤那些等等的顾虑…

或许我是个比较注重每个细节，每一点的人，特别是在这些正式的书信…

所以每次在我按下"send"那刻前，我总是重复念了又念，看了又看，读了又读的… 确保自己没有犯下错误才放心按下"send"。

有时这样的过于小心、仔细， 长期下去，会不会显得很不自己？

Opss~ 😅

然后到最后，每次检查邮件的时候，都会特别紧张害怕，却又既兴奋地在期待，到底有没有回复

囧

Seriously, I don't really know how to draw perfectly 

I'm not studying designing either

But Why ask me to draw??

So it turns out to be very concrete and structure work

with numbers of words

and It's totally not drawing anything
...

Just draft
it's just draft

Things will be better and nicer 

that it can present in front of people

名字

那天我在巴士上一个人坐着… 在发呆。 突然听见一把不熟悉的声音…我还没听清楚他说什么就转过头了… 再仔细回想，原来他是在叫我。他来自印尼，他突然叫我Mae1Ching4… 其实我也没管他怎么突然叫我Mae Ching地就回答了他问我的问题…

回答后他向我点头说谢谢。我又陷入了一个人静静地发呆看着车窗外和前方… 那时才想，怎么他会叫我Mae Ching… 不是叫我英文名。我想了想，哦，原来我们在面书是朋友…

大学里不太多同系的同学知道我的华语名，多半都会以我的英文名来称呼我。更没有多少个会叫我Mae1Ching4…说实在地，我还蛮不习惯有人叫我Mae1Ching4… 虽然，我没有很喜欢我的英文名…

之后的之后… 很多朋友好像都会叫我Mae1Ching4了～ o.o

Sorry

She is having some illness and not able to stand in the crowd

Please let her go first and do not near to her as she could hardly breath

=')

Don't worry
She is alright
There is just a little minor illness
After all, she will be okay

This is when I feel the sense of gratification 

Sense of achievement 

I'm glad that there are still lecturers who are so passionate about their job that giving everyone comments and suggestions at the end of every assignments. 

Proud to say
I got a good feedback from the lecturer ok
XD 

笑

你总是让我笑得那么用力

那么天真

那么自然

You always make me smile like nobody else 

Anxiety Friend

My course-mates probably know my personality and working style when it comes to studies aspect.

They probably know me well. In fact, I get tension and stress easily while doing assignment and academic related stuff.

I seek for perfection. I want things to be done in a short time. I want things to be organized and systematic. I strive for the best. Therefore, I believe that people who are doing work with me are quite pity. Especially people who are totally opposite to my traits. They would probably feel stressful and recognize me as a overreacting person.

I always been perceive as high anxiety person among them, and now being called "anxiety friend"

Should I cry? Or laugh?