Good attempt

这样就已足够了

Despite of the sleepless nights,

I never regret.

有你的这段路

我很感激

有你这段话

我已经满足了

Choose the suitable path;

You'll Love it;

You'll go far.

And Further. 

我只在乎我在乎的和在乎我的

并且是值得我在乎的

无眠

左翻右翻又是睡不着

这是没有上课的第49天的日子

好不容易摆脱读书的魔掌

却渡着身为那时自己还是学生的夜睡生活

这样的夜，顿时变得很漫长

我没有在这个无眠的夜煲剧或听歌入眠

却做着当年失眠会做的数数字

我已经有好久没有这样无眠的夜

数完却还没能入眠的我努力让自己不再依赖手机让我入眠，深怕有一天我真的瞎了；深怕每一天都要手机的光让我入眠

最后还是亲不自禁地拿起了手机

结果我做的却是上了储存学生在学校成绩的网址

我看的再是自己上学期的成绩

再看看这些年以来的成绩

失眠的夜，还是为了学业这一块

学成了，还是关心成绩这一块

虽然此刻什么也无法改变

只能好好的品尝往事的辛和累

在这不为什么却无眠的夜，我觉得好落空     好落空

站在这样的路口，我却不知该往哪儿走…

冬天里的阳光

这是个很美丽的岛屿。我从没想过自己会爱上冬天的气候。在还没有经历四季，就急着让自己爱上秋天的落叶凉风，似乎我也太未风先雨了。

··越是强迫努力；越是自责难受——   

“当坚持造成的伤害比放下大；也许放下才是该有的坚持”··

就快正式地步入另一个年龄层

总是想要写写点什么

却毫无思绪

或许我真的会更喜欢秋天的落叶凉风

但是眼前冷冰冰的冬季并没有抹去我心中的温暖

而时不时的阳光

却很暖心

那是一个

冬天里的阳光

Hug

Ultimately, received words from Jiejie is always the best healing for me. 

It seems like things have been resolved. Everything. Everything that I've been struggled with in the past year. I'm grateful because it brought me a beautiful ending here. 

After years, I realise that Jiejie is still the best company. It has been a long, yet short journey in my life. But the lessons that I gained are always bigger and more meaningful. People might say I'm lucky to meet such great person in life. Yes, I agree. At the same time, not forget to acknowledge myself. =) 

I appreciate everything given by the fate and God now. No matter it's up or down in my life. 

After all, I'm relieved and prepared myself to fly up high. Lastly, I wish you and I all the best for our future endeavors! *hug* 

Out of country experience

Out of country for a week +, and I just touched down on my country land. It surprised me a lot because it's already mid of January, and I feel that things have slightly changed here. I feel strange to this country. Perhaps I was trying hard and have started to adapt to the environment out there. 

I wouldn't have imagined that I could fly far away at this age, and in the past, I wouldn't dare to look forward visiting countries with four seasons. It's just like a dream when I actually did that. Seems like it's a gift for me after completing my undergraduate studies. I'm looking forward to exploring other countries, spending more time there and doing different things out there. It has been a dream to many people, I believe. 

I'm grateful to experience the enlightenment journey. I'll keep it in my mind, fully embrace the feelings and thoughts that I've experienced there, digest it, then continue to move on. I'll miss it a lot. In fact, I'm missing it. The people I met, the culture, the scenery, the snow, the food, the accommodation, and everything there. 

I'm experiencing a mixed feelings right after I'm back. I'm not sure what I'm longing for from the land. I find myself being too emotional. I was there for a short time, but seem like I was overly engaging with the people and the environment there. Feeling sad for leaving. But it's alright, I look forward to seeing myself grow to another stage in life. Every journey I experienced will lead me go further. 

Couldn't take it all on hand. Embrace the mixed feelings, digest it, reflect, and I shall move on. I'll be there again. 

New year 2016

It's new year! Hurray! 

This is the first post of 2016 and it should be a cheerful and happy update. 

Alright, people start to talk about new year resolution, goals and targets to be achieved by the end of the year. 

Watch Xin Yi's video blog, then you'll probably with her that these are something that make you feel more disappointed or probably reminding you as non-persistent person because many people failed to achieve what they set to be done. 

I partially agreed with what she mentioned, assuming that people are hardly to be persist in something that they are not motivated. People feel demotivated too easily, in fact. 

So what's on for me this year? I have been trying to think about my life, my future directions and try to set some goals so that I wouldn't feel empty by the end of the year. Perhaps I was too naive and confident that I'll surely achieve something in the end. So what's up? 

Nothing. 

What?! Nothing? 

Yes. I haven been settle down, I'm still exploring the way that I should go. I'm still lingering, and there're many considerations that I need to be concerned. 

It's hard to move on with a way, but I have a mission - give myself a chance to explore as much as I can. Try on the opportunities that bump to me. ;) 

This is still probably too general and too young minded. 

Anyway, I shall proceed and live my life as the way I would be enjoy with. 

6th day of 2016 

- I'm out of the country! Wee-- I'm typing this don't know how many miles away! Haha!

- I'm appreciated because I take the courage to share my feelings and thoughts with friends. I'm still care them a lot. In turn, I'm happy to see them or treat them as my loves one. 

- Not sure how people look at me, but I'll try not to let their feelings and thoughts to put me down. ;) 

Learn to become a better person. 

This is my constant goal. I believe.