那天看见朋友在面书上分享了一些句子名言。当中很多句，但我只选择性地、跳跃式地、随性地看了几句。一来我没有分享或注重这些所谓“中肯”的名言，二来也没有self-motivation用心的去阅读。有些文章很长，句子很多。通常我也只会跳过，除非我真的闷到极点或是一些领悟性的短篇。无可否认有些的确领出别一番智慧，但我还是没有太大的self-motivation。

在面书上和朋友聊天，等待他的回复时，我看见一句话。一句从几十句当中亮我眼的一句话。

我看了，“呵”了一下。

它是对的。

——在爱情的世界里，女人的沉默是最大的哭声，也是结束的前兆——

选择性地，沉默了。
之后的，就不看了。

我担心他们担心

This is my first time to drive home at this time from uni. Uni car park is dark, no much cars left. The brightest light I can see at the whole car park is only at the autopay machines. I walk there alone, with my phone on hand. I tried to call back because I'm worrying. I'm worrying that they might worry about me since I told them I'm going to leave the meeting earlier. But no one answer, so I SMS, after while, no reply also.

For those who knows me well, I cry easily at any places and any environment. I'm abit worry why my phone didnt show any missed call or message from them. I'm scare of being scolded. I might not be timid in front of people, but I am when I stand in front of them.

They are my closest and most important people in my life. They bring me up, brighten my life.

I can be crazing with my fellow. I can just leave my place and go anywhere I want without informing and just go around all the places I want to reach.

But I knew they are there. I stop myself for being irresponsible. They will be the person I hurt the most if anything goes wrong with me. I couldnt let them to worry about me, I couldnt bear to lose them.

I'm just worrying all along the highway in the dark night.
What am I worrying is that they are worrying about me.

I love them more than I love anything else in this world.
I should remember this love, and hold it forever.
Just because this love is the best assets to invest in life.

最担心的

是他们担心

这份爱

比任何资产来更值得投资

变

Class ended 30 minutes earlier today. I didn't go and take my car on the spot but stay at upper foyer together with my friends. We have the same mission and purpose to be there.

Gonna have a meeting with other committees and teachers. I dont know why we call them teacher, since everyone do so I do.

This is the first event that I involve in. I admit that my commitment is not much compare to others. But I never want to give up on this project. I knew it's hard, but I never know that it is harder than my expectancy.

Problems start approaching us from time to time while preparing. We work out on many solutions, but not everyone of it works. Thanks to every ideas contributors today so that the event can go on in the end. I'm just a nobody among them, but I'm grateful that my president would accept and listen to my solutions and try to run on it.

Everyone has their role in a team. Every members has their unique talents to make things work. Never look down people because they would bring you surprises when you are facing difficulties especially you are working in a team. As long as everyone holds the same mission, the target can be easily achievable.

Even though sometimes we might meet some fools, but the world is always like that. "There are many talented outside the world, so it must be balance with fools." -- quote from the vice president. This sentence might be harsh. But think it the other way, fools make things clearer,  they bring out the problems and invite all of us to solve it together. The problems might be hard and complicated, and sometimes you dont understand why they can just create such unreasonable and overage problems, this is the alert. It points out to everyone so that all can avoid repeating it next time.

It is no point to blame people with the happening obstacles especially you are in a team, with same mission, because it solves nothing. Focus more on the issue than emotions.

I found hard to separate my emotions with troubles sometimes. I would criticize people for not being respectful. But I did this mistake while I talk to my vice president. Maybe he thinks that it's no harm for me to talk to him casually, but if I were him, I would mind. I found myself did wrong. From him, I learnt to be more open to listen to others regardless of their position.

In a team, respectful, tolerances, understanding and self-discipline is much more important compared to focusing on self-works. Some people dont like team work so do I, but if you are willing to put your emotional aside, try to get along with them, you can do it. Provided if everyone holds the same mission to complete and achieve.

Wait for it

或许你不了解

辩，是因为要变

Having a strong blue feeling on Tuesday and Wesnesday after weeks of holidays.. Totally lost while I revise the chapters before the day. Luckily still able to pick up since it's not very hard and I've learnt in foundation.

The traffic is very smooth. Spent about 30 minutes to reach school instead of hours in the morning. Get used to be alone in tutorial class since I changed my Wednesday tutorial to Tuesday morning. I sat at a corner, looking people outside walking in and out from the building and bus. Such a busy day..

Received a msg from my president and she told me that she's going to join into my tutorial class. She sat beside me and I just smiled at her without any talk except asking about tutorial questions. I looked cool to her, I guess. I just dont feel like speaking until she told me that our result is out. At that moment, I feel my heart has fallen. The result has been release two days earlier from what admin announced. I was quite nervous, no, I was super nervous, until I cant stand the cold temperature in class and shiver after my president told me she got a quite bad result especially methodology. 

Found a stable wifi place and checked my result aside at Wisma HELP. And so, it'slightly disappointed. (memang literally disappointed). I dont want to put it in sad zone because there's nothing to sad of. I told monkey, calmly. and no one else. My president is quite worry about me but she just keep quiet beside me. Wanted to meet up with my tutor but failed, and we went to class together. 

So, it's my day.

Quite calm. Learnt not to be sad and exaggerate things. Although I always showed my sadness and helplessness face in front of those I care, but I'm okay. (memang okay). A Fact is a fact, cant really change it. Also learnt not to mix up things together, but concern about each small small matter because it might affect you. Solve every problem one by one, steady and be calm. 

But sometimes, it is hard to separate things from one another especially they happened to you simultaneously.

Control, just control. We are the one who control the mind not our brain to control us. =)

即使做不到，也要控制。努力的学习。

虽然一个人面对，但珍惜学习的机会。

嗯，感觉自己又长大了一些些。

谢谢。

我很满足。

知足。

I'm fine & okay. I deserve it. 

如果你脆弱，那么这个世界上没有一个人是坚强的了。like  =)
Thank you.

它

一年不会有多少次去KLCC。去的都很少为了逛街。几乎每次去都是因为它。

它像是从我中学生涯开始就离不开的。

话说我喜欢它，但很少看它。看着它，我需要花上比他人长的时间。

可能从小没有和它培养浓厚的兴趣。但我依旧纯纯的喜欢它。

今天，我又去看它了。它依旧当年那样。

但是看起来好像小的。是我长高了吗？懂得看得更远了吗？

或许是，或许只是我想太多。

伟大的它，把太多人带来了。吸引了更多爱它的人。

所以，我又再次踏上那片地。再次游玩摸索。

突然觉得自己长大了，勇敢了。因为我想要一个人。

我不再害怕庞大的它。开始接触它。

它有很多宝，可惜我未能将它一一带去。

今天只带了两本。

谢谢。

只想说
谢谢
=)

上面的都是废话。 LOL!
Conclusion::

Bought PM's new book 《小小的明信片》 & Chan Fong's 《大城心事》

So lucky to get the present prepared by PM - iphone 5 casing & took picture with him

BUT, I'm not using Iphone 5 eh~ =/

Luck.. =)

它-> 书展 (书)

;)

Peneng Trip With VIP

Have a great holiday with my VIP few days ago.. We went to Peneng by plane, go everywhere in Peneng by taking bus and walking. Even though we are sweating under the hot weather, we can still chilling around. I never expect I got the chance to travel with my friends at this age and it's still unbelievable for me now.. LoL!!

The food there are delicious; scenery are fantastic; bus drivers there are very polite and everything there is good, but the weather is super hot on the first day we reach. I was low of energy and sleep for hours in the guest house after we step into the room. I slept alone like a boss and others went out for their activities. I dont even know what had happened after I woke up because there's no one in the room. =/ I check my watch and realized I slept for 1 hour +. In the end I cant sleep at night.. =/

The weather turned rainy and cloudy on the second day. I love the weather because it is quite refreshing and cold especially at Bukit Bendera. I enjoyed taking bus because I can see people, building and everything happened at the street. I kept quiet, close my mouth most of the time. I dont know what to talk to with them, I feel lost sometimes maybe our channels and antennas are different? haha.. and this why I fall asleep in the bus and sleep like.. er erm.. Tbh, I was just half sleep and half awake because I opened my eyes when the bus stopped at each station and I continue sleeping when the bus goes. haha! But I really enjoy the moment in bus. Never take such a long time in bus, with those VIP somemore. =P

I love the beach, but it's kinda sunny.. I wish I can jump into the sea and play like nobody else. Kay, I might look like a kid. But this is me. =P

I will miss the moment together
<3 p="">

Yo, Peneng Lang
=)

歌

最近华文乐坛实在有太多好歌
听了几回就能哼能唱
朋友就连在面书上都share些动听的怀旧歌曲
还要replay了再replay
不得让自己沉醉在乐曲中

很多时候
我们很容易迷恋上听歌

因为每当音符配上不同的主旋律
再搭上锐利的文字时
不得不否认一些文字正适合搭配自己的心情

虽然我的心情确实容易被一些突如其来的事情影响
但我很感谢每当自己心情低落的时候
总有贵人陪伴
使我
更加珍惜彼此之间的感情

谢谢你
我爱的每个人

或许心情就需要像那掺杂的颜色笔

不同的颜色

彩出不同的感觉

有时候

掺杂了

才会有另一番体会

do you dare to dream?

not everything can be assured, especially those unforeseeable

sometimes,

future might looks iffy;

we might feel lost, doubtful

and wander

human aren't machines

everyone has emotions and feelings

whether fear, disgust, anger, happiness, sadness, contempt or surprise

either shame, guilt, pride, humiliation or embarrassing

we always experience different moment with various feelings

sometimes even mix up

we face everything with different emotions

sometimes it last long until it affects your mood

it might seems to be a dicey future in life

but people are still enjoying in spite of the challenges

the question is

do you dare to pursue your dream?