Update

Been going through my life adjustment and trying to adapt into a new environment and culture for the past one month. My life doesn't seem to be a mess, but it is definitely not the life I've been encountered in my past 20 years.

Sometimes, I spend the time thinking about my current daily routine. I'm glad that I've been selected and placed in this position. I've been given a lot of freedom and courage in doing the assignments that I need to be done, I should be appreciate because not everybody there has this kind of opportunity. Meanwhile, I also been given numbers of opportunities, which directly / indirectly beneficial to my self-development.

I wasn't been bombarded with questions about life after graduation. But I did think about it most of the time, and slowly, people around are asking me about that. To be frank, I think I'm not well-prepared yet. I'm still wandering, just like travelling without any direction. This is what I think I shouldn't be. I shouldn't be not knowing what I want to do; what I need to do; and what is my ultimate goal. If you don't even know what you want and what you actually looking for in life, that must be ridiculous. Seriously.

But do I really travelling aimlessly in the life journey? I think deeply.
No. I'm not. I know what I want and what I'll be doing ultimately, and I have the faith that I'll achieve it. But why am I still wandering and being so uncomfortable as like I'm lack of confident? 

Am I?
Am I wandering because I'm seeking for approval - to build up the close relationship to gain my sense of security?
Am I feeling that way because of I'm lack of structured plan - to seek for accurate and measurable plan to gain my sense of security?
Am I feeling lost and uncomfortable because of the uncertainty - am looking for the productivity result to gain my sense of security?


There's something I need to be aware, I guess.

Nobody else knows us better than ourselves. I'm pretty sure about my role and my direction. Despite of the external factors, like seeking for approval and recognition, I shouldn't deny doubt my inner voice. I shall spend time listen on it. Because that's the inner part of myself.

Keep it  up.

一直都很喜欢光良的歌。我相信他的歌曲应该陪过很多80和90后无数个黑夜白昼。

虽然他的歌很容易入耳，同时也很容易听腻。但是厌倦之后，过了一段日子再听回去，又是别一番滋味。而且还会有许多回忆涌上心头。

对我来说，光良就是有种那样的磁性。那并不是每个歌手都有的吸引力。

有些人会觉得他的歌曲总是很相似。那种旋律，那种节奏，那种，光良类型的歌曲。或许有些人会觉得他的演义没有什么突破，但我想、那就是他的个人品牌，他的个人卖点。

撇开曲风，我还是很喜欢他。他就是有一副没有什么表情的样子；在他身上却能感受到一种情感。一种，不是每个人都能散发的情感。

再多日子以后，我又听回这首歌。又让我想起上一次唱这首歌的时候… 那一次，不经意地就唱得掉眼泪。

是，每一个完成或未完成的事情，都会让我们成长。如果不是你，我不会曾如此伤心；现在的我也不会更懂得爱惜生活自我成长。

虽然前一段的日子总有点灰，但最终我明白，那是让我成为更好的自己的一堂课。我们都一起成长了。不是吗？虽然我还很努力地长大，每当想起你还是会不离不弃；但我也清楚明白，我们都需要一直往前进。在如此漫长的马拉松里，从我们相遇相识相见相离；最后，我想我们又在不同的地点相遇了。真是缘分？还是巧遇？

感谢我的生命里有你；感谢你曾给我的真心。让我们彼此做一个更好的自己吧。路还很长，让我们勇敢前行吧。

我不晓得你是否还会像我如此眷恋；也不知道另一个你会变得怎样；更不知道你会怎么看我。但都已经无所谓了。当所有都看开，都放下，其实，真正需要放下的，是自己。摊开胸膛，呼吸，接受，吸收，成长。

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已经很久没有驾车了

 已经很久没有驾车了

这一个月以来，这是我驾过最长远的距离。应该吧。

当我开车那一刻，就传来那一把熟悉的声音。是，我习惯驾车听电台。因为我知道，早上的节目可以让我吸收很多资讯。而我却很想像鲁豫那样，做一个每天需要吸收很多资讯的人。而这一个月以来，我知道，我已经很久没有听电台了。

不知不觉，已经一个月了。日子过得如何，还好吗？

其实，我不太懂得回答。

Thank you my friend for the kind words

Initially would like to share it on Facebook as the message actually makes me laugh after a long day. But end up I didn't because I thought there's no much people would like to know what my friend told me and no much people would interested in the conversation between my friend and I. 

Still, I mentioned it here as to update my blog. Haha! This is abit realistic, but yes, this is one of the happy memories created after I stepped into "the university of reality". 

Sometimes, good words make people happy. So why not practice it in life? ;) 

Of course, not too over as it might brought a fake feelings to people. In fact, everything needs to come from the deep heart. The sincerity. 

今天又看到很美丽的画面

一个年纪较大的婆婆走进火车，还拉着小车子，装着报纸等杂物

一个上班族姐姐站了起来，拍拍Aunty 的肩旁：“Aunty, 你坐这边”

每次步行都让我有所领悟。有些画面太漂亮。使我恨不得把当下给纪录下来。只可惜我只能用脑袋的能力，把它都储存在记忆里。

但愿每一天步行，我都可以看到不懂的画面。有一天，我的生活会因为这些生活小事物而变得更有画面。

每一次步行，都让我看见些什么… 就像搭火车的外国人，我每次见到他都会对他微笑，他既如此。那一种陌生人的对望微笑，足以让我心情开朗。生活，并没有看起来的严苛，事实上，生活还是有一丁点近人情的。

每一次步行，我都想感觉到了什么… 就像今天步行回家，路途经过一群人在路边伴奏音乐，有的唱歌有的玩乐器。赶时间的我快速把眼神投入那群人里。嗯，他们多半是有残缺美的队伍；却唱着很轻快，甜蜜的歌曲，甜滋滋的，暖了我的心。

乜人娶到呢个真系够力 !

上training课程 - 剖析人格课程… 老板娘（工作上有个很酷，位子在整个公司的正中央的 事业女性，我称她：老板娘）在教我们怎么应对不同性格的人。

解释的过程中，老板娘让我们互相讲解对方的性格代号，并让我们写下我们自己真正的性格代号。（代号是从测验中取出来的）。因为公司有一位很好的大学朋友，结果他就把他对我的一些人格剖析分享了给大家。

讲着讲着，我亲爱的老板娘用广东话说了一句：“谁娶到这个真的是够力啊”。

哈哈！谁告诉你我是个容易的人 ;)

附：其实最后又发现
1. 我的性格代号被写错了
2. 老板娘最后补说：其实真正这样个性的人，是最容易相处的。 =目

据说，老板娘也是这样的人。